Hurt by Johnny Cash Also done by NIN{Nine inch Nails} Brian's POV I sit here watching Justin sleeping after the prom. It’s been a week since he was hit. I can’t help but feel like this is my fault. If I wouldn’t have gone. If I would have just stayed away. I can hear the nurse talking to me but my mind is so fucking gone that the only thing that I can think of when I look through this window is a song. A fucking song isn’t what Brian Kinney is about, but this song I heard on the way here makes me stop and think. Hurt myself today. To see if I still feel I focus on the pain The only thing that's real The needle tears a hole The old familiar sting Try to kill it all away But I remember everything What have I become? My sweetest friend Everyone I know Goes away in the end And you could have it all My empire of dirt I will let you down I will make you hurt I look down at my shaking hands. I have hurt him. I have let him down. I let everyone down. I didn’t want him hurt. I wouldn’t wish that on anyone but Jack Kinney. I see Justin move and shake his head in a dream. I want to take those bad dreams from him. I close my eyes as the song comes back into mind. I wear this crown of thorns Upon my liar's chair Full of broken thoughts I cannot repair I can’t fix this. How can I fix this? Beneath the stains of time The feelings disappear You are someone else I am still right here But I can’t seem to leave. He is important to me. I know what pain is. I know what it is liked to be hit. I have all the stains, but Justin is the one who made me believe again. That I belong somewhere. What have I become? My sweetest friend Everyone I know Goes away in the end And you could have it all My empire of dirt Please don’t go away Justin. Please don’t leave me. I need you. I will gladly give you anything you want. I will let you down I will make you hurt But together we will make it better. We will hurt each other, this I know. But I hurt more without you. If I could start again A million miles away I would keep myself I would find a way But I want to start again with Justin. I will find a way to make this up to you. With tears I sit back down, knowing that this hurts way more then Jack hitting me. “I love you.” I whisper through my tears, looking through the window, where no one could hear me. And from this point on, I will show you. Not just show, I will tell you. Because I can't handle this kind of hurt anymore.