Anything in bold is just in Brians head. The stuff in bold italic is being said in his head, but also in the present time.
I would like to thank everyone for standing by me. My betas are off for the holidays so all mistakes are my own. Happy Holidays everyone.
As I wake up I find myself alone in bed. I sit up and yell for Justin. He comes in and smiles at me. “I’m right here Brian.” He tells me before handing me breakfast in bed.
I can’t believe that I am in this whole mess because of him. I had a dream of my old life and I know that I can’t change what is going on but damn it, Justin has made my life a total hell. Ok not all of it, but a lot of it. Ok not a lot, but I do miss the old me.
“Let’s eat Baby.” He tries to hand feed me put I push him away.
“What the fuck. Look Justin, this is getting all to commitment like and I don’t do this shit. I know that I have told you before, I mean when you first came here.” I snap at him and immediately regret my words as he moves away from me.
“Brian, chill out. I know you love me. Just stop with all this pushing me away. You need me just as much as I need you”
“And stop with this fucking mind playing game with me.” I go into the bathroom.
When I come out Justin is sitting on the couch reading the paper. I see a little bit of it ‘Local Ad man still in coma after accident’ and shake my head thinking poor son of a bitch, now I can take his clients. Shit what is wrong with me?
I lean over and kiss Justin. “I’m sorry I snapped at you. “
“It’s ok, I know better then to mess with you when you are like that.” He pulls me down into a kiss.
“Not usually like this. I’m just feeling more edgy then normal.” I tell him as I move to sit down next to him. I take the paper from him and skim the bold part about the ad man. “Poor son of a bitch.” I say.
“Ya he’s a great ad man and a great man. I hope to have him back soon” I have to look away because that mad me feel bad. And it didn’t even come out of his mouth. It was like the other times, in the back of my mind.
“I guess I should get ready for work.” I get up to go into the shower. “Brian, its Saturday. You are off today” He laughs at me.
“Oh ya. Want to join me in the bedroom then?” I ask before pulling him up with me.
“Anything for you.” I am pushed down and then Justin just rips my clothes off. “I love when you an animal” he laughs and then without warning he leans over and takes my dick into his mouth.
He just starts to stoke me and sucks me like there wasn’t a tomorrow. Before I knew it I was cumin in his mouth. He leans up and kisses me. “Even when you don’t rise to the occasion, or get up out of bed there is always this one part that won’t let us down.”
“God how do you do that? I want to dominate you and then you turn around and dominate me and make me cum faster then I ever thought possible.” I tell hi, catching my breath.
“I guess I just know you and your body.” He whispers to me.
He gets up and smiles. “It’s Saturday. You might not have to work, but I do have to go to the studio. You just get some much-needed rest. I love you.” He kisses me before heading to the door.
I want to say it back but I find myself just nodding to him. He walks out and the day begins as everyone would stop over. Some was in my head, I know it, but at the same time it wasn’t. It’s hard to explain.
After they left and Justin got home we ordered diner. We were sitting on the couch when there is a knock at the door. Justin opens it and pays for the food.
We talk while we eat and Justin makes me laugh about something that has to do with school. He moves over to me and takes my hand. “I love you Brian. I know you say it’s to early and that you don’t do it, but I know you do.” He kisses me as we move into the bedroom. He doesn’t aloud me to say anything knowing that I would probably say the wrong thing.
We fuck and then it’s off to sleepy land. I awake the next morning, Sunday morning to hearing Justin in the next room with what sounds like a bunch of people. I move into the living room to find everyone there. Justin, Deb, Vic, Mikey, Ben, Hunter, Em, Ted, Mel, Linds and even baby Gus.
“Merry Christmas Brian” They all sing song to me. How the fuck is it Christmas already? I think to myself.
They have the tree and presents. “We decided to bring Christmas to you asshole” Deb laughs and it turns out to be a great morning.
“Justin, when did you arrange this?” I ask him.
“I didn’t, Deb did.” He smiles as he walks away.
I walk over to Deb. “Thanks mom” I kiss her cheek.
“Don’t thank me, it was Justin’s idea, I just made it come to life” She puts her hands in the air.
“It’s a day of miracles Brian” Vic said from behind me.
I sit back and watch my family interact with each other and how comfortable they are with Justin. As well as how Justin is with them. Gus seemed to have grown as well. He is on Justin’s lap, laughing and playing with a toy that he just opened. I can’t help but think of what Vic said “It’s a day of miracles” and it is because I have all this love of this wonderful family.
But just as fast as it started, it ended. I still can see Deb talking to Justin who looks at me with sad eyes. They fade into the background when I see Deb coming over to me and see Justin lay down and close his eyes.
“Baby you need to stop being a stubborn asshole. That kid needs you and so do the rest of us.” She tells me, holding my hand.
“What are you talking about?” I ask her.
“Brian it’s time.” She pats my hand again. “Quit being a fucking asshole and wake up.” I look at her like she’s crazy.
“I am awake.” But yet my voice seems distance even for me.
“Wake the fuck up Brian. Wake up, damn it. Justin and Gus need you. Wake up Brian. It’s Christmas. It’s time for miracles.” She tells me and everything is fading out. What is going on?
“Brian, if you don’t wake the fuck up right now, I’m going to take your balls and cut them off and hang them on my wall. Your balls to the wall. Wake the fuck up Kinney.” I feel my eyes shutting and then myself falling back. Just as I hit the floor, my eyes open and I see Deb sitting in front of me.
“Oh my god, you woke up. Thank god. I’ll get the doctor. Sunshine. Justin wake up, he’s awake” As I look to my side I see that Justin was sleeping next to me.
“Oh my god, Brian, you are awake. Oh I love you I love you I love you”
“What the fuck happened? Where am I” I ask Justin. I am so confused.
“Brian you have been in a coma for two weeks. You were in an accident but you are going to be ok.” Justin tells me.
The doctor and Deb come in and Justin moves just off the bed, never letting go of my hand. “What the fuck is going on?” I ask the doctor.
“Brian what is the last thing you remember?” The doctor asks me.
“Justin me and Deb in the loft. Celebrating Christmas.” I tell him.
“That’s not possible, we had Christmas here.” I look at Justin who nods.
“OK can I please get have some time with Justin if you are finished poking and prodding me?”
Deb and the doctor left and I turned to Justin, “OK lay it on me what the fuck happened?”
“We were in a car accident and we have been trying to get you to wake up.” Justin tells me.
“A car accident? What happened?”
“We were sidetracked by someone.” He tells me.
“Justin who?”
“My dad.” He said quietly.
“Are you okay?” I have to know.
“Ya, I had a few broken ribs from where you landed on me, trying to make sure I don’t get hurt more. Which I would have if it wasn’t for you.” He kisses me.
“I’m glad that you are okay. But Justin, I remember you were the one in the accident. You kept telling everyone we were in a relationship and we weren’t. You couldn’t remember what was going on so I took you home with me and you knew things about our lives together, like about Stockwell and the posters and a few other things. You were talking to me but half the shit didn’t make sense.” I look at him and then down to the paper.
“Shit, hand me that” I tell him and take it from him.
“Local Ad man still in coma after accident. This was about me?”
“Ya, when did you see it?” He looks at me.
“In my dreams I guess.” I answer him.
“Merry Christmas Brian.” He kisses me and I pull him into me. “What about the blowjobs and fucking?”
“Well, I sorta did do that. I didn’t want all of you to be out of it” He smiles down on me.
“Brian are you okay?” He asks me.
I think about this for a minute and how it felt to have him and what it was like before him.
I pull him into a heated kiss and he pulls away. “Sunshine as long as I have you, my life will never have a gray area again.”