Brian As we drove back to the loft, I sneaked a peek at Justin who is looking out the window with a smile plastered on his face. Sensing me looking at him, he turns to look at me. “What?” “Nothing.” I reply reaching over to take his hand. “Brian?” He smiles even more, knowing what I am saying. “I know, just drive us as fast as you can, without getting stopped so we can get back to the loft to..” Looking at him he gives me a look before I finish what he started. “To talk about our future.” He nods his head at me as I go back to driving and he looks back out the window, with smile in place. Once back at the loft, I get us some water because he knows if I’m not going for Jim Beam or something stronger, that I’m serious about what we are about to talk about. Sitting on the couch, I reach over to pull him closer to me. He pulls away looking at me. “Brian,” he looks into my eyes. “I just want to be close to you and have you in my arms while we talk.” He smiles as he moves into my arms, which move around his body. “Comfy?” I ask once he is situated. “Very.” He smiles at me. “Okay, I guess I will start by saying that what I said earlier tonight, I meant every word. Justin, I have never met a man I couldn’t live without until you. I have tried too many times and each time it has felt like I couldn’t breath. I felt like the air was leaving my body and I was dying. And I never want that feeling again.” I stop to lift his chin. I look into his eyes and see tears, so I wipe them away with my thumb. “Sunshine, you light up my life. You are my one and only true prince.” He laughs, looking at me. “I know you are telling the truth because you don’t say things you don’t mean.” He whispers to me. “That’s right Justin, I don’t. So everything I have said and will say tonight will be the truth. I can be harsh at times and say things I don’t truly mean, but you know that I do it for certain reasons. But this is one of those times I’m saying it for the right reasons. I have kicked you out a few times, which hurt me, but I also knew that you wouldn’t give up on me that easy. So when you walked out, it hurt more then anything in my life.” “Why didn’t you come for me and why didn’t you tell me about the bet?” “Because you needed to know and come to terms with some things in you to know the whole truth and that just because some blond twink tells you that he loves you, doesn’t mean shit until you believe it yourself. You had to have the time to let it sink into you what the truth was. All that was needed was time to let it sink in and the truth would come out like it always does.” Smiling at me, I know he has caught onto the double meaning of what I just said. His smile broadens when he sees me smiling. “And I know it wasn’t said in a romantic way, but.” He stops me before I finish the sentence. “It was the true Brian Kinney way.” I smirk knowing that we always knew the other so well. “Yea, I guess it was. But you always did make me lose my cool when I had ‘feelings’ flowing out. You always did get me to show more then the ‘walls up’ Kinney way.” “Brian, I always knew you loved me. That wasn’t the problem. I guess after the bashing I lost the ability to handle just the actions alone because,” I stop him by saying the rest of what he is thinking. “Because you never know how long you have with that person and you should now just show it, but say it.” “Brian, we keep finishing,” “Each other’s sentences. I know I said I hated when couples do that, but I like you finishing mine.” I finish that sentence with a kiss. “I know that the old Brian Kinney would have done the bet no matter who was on the stupid list. Not that you need help getting some hot guy to fuck.” I take his hand in mine. “I don’t want any hot guy. I want one hot guy and that’s you. And I wouldn’t have fucked just anyone. I wouldn’t have fucked Theodore, or Michael.” I look into his eyes but slowly look down at our hands. “Justin, I know I have no right to ask or to be told because it’s your business. But did you fuck him? Or let him fuck you?” He lifts my chin up. Smiling he looks me in the eyes, “That took a lot out of you to ask that.” I nod my head before he continues. “No, he didn’t fuck me, and no I didn’t fuck him. I wasn’t ready for that step with him.” He tells me as I feel myself let out a sigh. “I have to say I’m glad.” I see him look away before looking back at me. “Me too.” He said honestly. “Okay, let me finish what we started. I should have told you this a long time ago. Justin Taylor,” I look into his eyes, smiling. “I love you with every fucking fiber of my being. Always have, always will. I sometimes can’t breathe from how much I love and need you. It’s like I can’t breathe without you with me either. I know I should have said it before, but I was afraid. But 5 years later we are still stronger together then we are alone. We’ve had our share of bumps. Justin, I need you back.” I see he is crying again as he kisses my lips. “I know you do.” But I stop him once again so I can continue. I want to get this all out. It’s been in me so long, I have to keep going. “I have loved you from the very beginning. Well, a few days after knowing that I let you help name my son, and see and fuck you more then once. Wanting to do it told me you weren’t a normal trick. You were never a trick, hell, you were different from anyone I knew and I knew it. Something was different with you. I was going to tell you the night of the prom, then Chris ruined it and it scared me to love someone so fucking much it hurt. To see you in my arms, not moving, it scared me shitless. I felt like it was my fault. But I know now it wasn’t.” “Brian, you were there for me on so many levels. There are no regrets on my end on dancing with the man I love at my prom and you shouldn’t have any either. Other then the bashing and losing the dance, there isn’t anything I would change. It was great, and it wasn’t your fault. It was Chris’s fault.” Kissing me, I feel his wet tears fall down my cheek, but then realizing that are my own tears. He wipes them from my face as he kisses me softly. “I was so fucking scared I lost you that night. I was so afraid I would never hold you or kiss you. I was out of my mind. I was there every night after everyone else went home, not wanting to showed anyone how it effected me. I felt like I was letting you down because I couldn’t make you better. Justin, you and my son are my life. I love you both so much.” Kissing his soft lips once more, he looks into my wet eyes. “I know you were there Brian. I could feel you. I know you love me Brian. I love you too. And I am so glad you are finally coming clean with your feelings. It’s great to hear.” I run my hand on his arm. Justin It’s good to finally hear him saying it even though I knew how he felt. I always knew. “I know you knew Justin. But it’s not the same. I should have told you when you first woke up. And with the bet, well, you are wrong. I wouldn’t have fucked just anyone on it. I would not fuck Theodore or Mikey. But when I saw your name on it and knew what he wanted to do and knowing that I would just be using you to win a bet, I couldn’t do it. Besides, you would have seen right through me. I couldn’t do that though. I wanted the next time we,” He smiles “Fuck.” He answers. “No, when we made love next, I wanted it to be because we were back together, not because of some bet. Plus, thinking of you with other guys kills me. It makes me mad with jealousy. I wanted it to be because you finally know how I feel about you. That you would know it was love and not just the action of it.” I rub his cheek with my fingers. “Then what more is there to say?” I smile. “Let’s go make love.” “Justin, I want you to make love to me.” I look at him stunned. “Bri?” I feel his arm around my waist as he lifts me up, carrying me to the bed. Laying me down, he slowly removes his clothes, then removes mine, never taking his eyes off mine. He leans over and kisses my lips, then down to my neck over my ear. “I love you Sunshine.” He whispers as he moves down to my chest, biting my nipples just hard enough to send shivers down my spine. “I love you too.” I barely get out as he kisses down to my stomach. He licks the place right above where the pubic meets the back of my stomach. “MMM” I moan out as he keeps going lower, kissing my thighs and then taking my now leaking hard cock into his mouth. “You taste so good.” He whispers out. “Feels so good.” I barely sigh out. Taking me back into his mouth, I can feel my dick hit the back of his throat as a finger slides into my ass. “Ohh fuck. Brian.” Moving his mouth faster, he wraps his tongue around the head of my cock. Then just as fast as he was on it, he had the condom on and was leaning over me, sliding down on top. “Fuck.” He yells. He rolls me over so that I am on top, and he is looking up at me. “You feel so fucking good.” He tells me. “You are so tight Brian.” I say, moving slowly at first then picking up pace. Moving as one, I lean down kissing his lips with passion. Not the hungry kind, but the deep sensual kind. The kind you feel it in your toes. The kind you can’t breathe after. I feel him holding me to his lips moaning as I push farther inside. I lean my forehead against his and feel his breath on my lips. “Fuck Sunshine.” He gasps out as I pick up the pace even more. He pulls me back down on top of his body as my movements slow down to a slower pace. Running his hands on my back, I kiss his neck. Before long, I can feel his anal walls squeezing my dick as I feel his load flow between us. I follow quickly after and squirt my load inside his hot ass as he bites my neck, whispering “I love you” and then kissing me as we both come down from our orgasms. “I love you too Brian.” I pant out. “Damn Justin, no one has ever made me cum so hard without touching my cock.” Realizing what he said I sit up and look at him. “Shit, Brian, I’m sorry.” I realize I didn’t even jerk him off while making love to him. “Sunshine, it’s great. I was so into it that I didn’t need to be touched by you to cum.” Smiling at me, I lean over to lick his cum off him. “Justin, look at me.” I do as he said and see his eyes tell me as his smile fills up the room. “I held you so close to me; I didn’t want you to stroke me while making love. I wanted this to be about you and how you make me feel and now you know how you make me feel without touching my dick. You always have that effect on me.” I know what he means. He does that to me to. “Besides, we have the rest of our lives to do this.” I kiss his lips as I lay next to him. “Damn Brian, you think you will be able to keep up with me?” I laugh as he slaps my side. “Look for yourself.” He nods his head towards his now hard again cock. “You are awesome.” I feel his hand on my arm as he rolls on top of me “Only because of you. You make me a better man. A better lover and most of all, you make me the happiest I could ever hope to be.” “I love you.” I look him in the eyes as he smiles. “Ditto.” I was about to say something when I see the look he is giving me and smile at him again. “Oh Sam.” Laughing at the fact that I now know he was actually watching the movie ‘Ghost’ with me when he complained and said he wasn’t paying attention. “Patrick is so hot in that movie.” I get out right before he kisses me. Looking at me, he gets a smirk. “Not as hot as you Sunshine. Nothing can be hotter then the Sunshine.” Pulling him closer, all thoughts are now back on the fact I want him inside of me. And I know this is just the beginning of our long and happy life together. Yes we will have our problems, but we will work them out, together.