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Rena said she wanted an update and I bet you guys did too. Since I had a chapter to offer here it is. This might get confusing. He, he. No, it will be confusing. So sorry about that. At the beginning is Justin fighting with himself. So he's like talking to himself and answering himself too. So, good luck with that. I did get confused myself. He, he. No shock there. Thanks to my beta. Enjoy it guys. Justin’s POV I’m strong. I’m strong. I’m strong. Shut up! Shut up! Shut up! I’m going insane. This thing is me. How can I fight it? You can’t fight me. You just can’t. It will be okay. No worries at all. Brian will be mine forever. We’ll be together forever. He’s mine, mine, mine. Ours Justin. He belongs to you and me because we are the same. I have to be strong. I can’t let this take over. I can’t. I can’t. I can’t. I love him. No, I love him. He’s mine. No, he’s mine. I will kill him. No, I will stop you. It’s what I was born to do. But you said we were the same. So what?! I was born to love him. Shut up! Shut up! Shut up! You don’t understand anything. You don’t know how hard it was there. You couldn’t trust anybody. It was our own very hell. Nobody cared. What are you talking about? My father cared. He did. He loved me and watched out for me. He taught me what I had to do and I will do it. He was betrayed and it’s not fair! I don’t care about that. This is about Brian. I won’t let you hurt him. But father loves me. I owe him. Want me to show you? Show me? Show me what? The room disappears and then I’m walking freely and everything is so small. I look up at the sky and the sun is red and the sky is a shade of light green. I feel a pair of arms around my waist and I pull away. Whoever it is, tries to grab me again. When I turn around there is a monster staring back at me. I don’t have control of my actions. This feels like a memory. I see myself fighting the monster and when all hope seems lost I manage to kill him or her or whatever this thing is. It grabs me as its falling and I fall down with it. Then it holds on to me as it starts to die. I stare at the demon in my arms. It’s squirming and whimpering. I stare at the purple skin and dark markings. The gash I made at his neck is bleeding and the blood is black. I turn back when I feel someone near me, it feels familiar. I look down not able to confront him. “Look at me, Luc,” the man instructs me. “Son, I am speaking to you.” I stand up and for some reason I am taller than he is; way taller. I’m five times his size. I could crush him so if I wanted. “What have you done?” he asks. “What have you done?! Answer me now boy!” “He wanted to make me impure,” I let him know. “You speak of my pureness father. It does not belong to him. You said that it should be saved for my mate. Have I done something wrong?” “No, you have not,” he assures me and suddenly he transforms into a woman and she’s as big as me. “Don’t worry child. Soon you will be out of here. I’ll take care of you.” I nod. “You know what you have to do to get me out of here,” she says and hugs me tightly as he turns into a man. “I do,” I tell him. “I won’t fail you father.” “Brian, Brian, Brian,” I whisper. “Oh please. You have to kill me!” I yell as hard as I can. Stop sounding so pathetic. Get out of my head! You get out of my head! You’re so weak! “Shhh,” Cody says as he looks back. I realize that they're in front of me. I don't know when they got inside. I look at Cody and arch a brow. “Cody, you have to kill me," I beg him. “No, no,” Kevin says shaking his head. “Guys,” Max whispers. “Are you sure about this?” “We’re so going to get caught,” Quinn says. "Keep it down." “Shut the fuck up all of you,” Cody tells them. “I’m going to kill Brian,” I tell them. “You can’t let that happen. You have to kill me first. Max, come here and do it.” “Hey,” Max protests. “Why does it have to be me? Tell Quinn to do it. Then father can be angry at him and not me.” Cody shakes his head. “Shut up!” he hisses as low as he can. Kevin caresses my face and then moves to lick my neck. “Ours.” “Hey lover boy,” Quinn says. “Could you leave that for later?” Cody takes a book out of the bag he brought inside. I stare at it and then at him. “Here are the candles,” Quinn says. “All black.” “What the fuck do you think you’re doing?” I ask them. “You little shit! You won’t do this. Help!” I scream at the top of my lungs. Quinn jumps in front of me and gags me. I try to push my head in every direction but he still manages to tie it up around my head. I glare at them but they ignore me. They are trying to set you free. Then I will be free. No! Oh yes. Wait, how do I know that? You just want me to make some noise so they get stopped. You don’t want this happening. They are just postponing the inevitable. This is actually more than perfect. This will fool everyone. What do you mean? I’ll tell you, why not? When I was turned into a vampire there wasn’t a demon that came and intertwined with our soul. There wasn’t? I’ve been here all this time lying dormant. I was letting Brian love me. Then how come they came for me? They gave me a soul. No you see, what they did was make your soul stronger. You’re lying because you’re trying to confuse me. Now that my memory is back I remember everything. Whatever you are you’ve never just been lying silently inside of me. I know. You know what. You’re right. I think you’ve always been here. And you were intertwined with me. That’s how I made all those killings. If it had been just the soul I wouldn’t have. So, fine you got me. When death came for me they freed us. We got divided and our soul was more powerful than me so I had to stay back and watch. Don’t for a moment think you’re stronger. You were able to take control because of them. But now we’re undivided and we’re fighting. Because the witch’s spell was to make things how they were supposed to be. But she didn’t know that you and I were divided. Not that she would have been able to put us back together. Then why are you trying to trick me? That’s for me to know. I can find out. No you can’t! We’re one remember. All I have to do is think of everything I’ve done. I’ll get to see it. If we are one, we own the same memories. No! I look ahead of me and stop before turning to father. “What are we doing here?” “That’s where you must go,” he tells me. “Go Luc.” “But no one can go through that,” I tell him. “What’s going on father?” “He’s waiting for you,” he tells me. “Your father would help you cross.” I look back at the dark forest. It looks a bit hazy and it’s shaking. The land is always like that; trembling and making ripples all around it. “How come I’m able to go through?” I ask him. “You always could,” he tells me. “You will be alright.” I nod at him. “I will do it father. I will make Brian and I one and we will bleed for you.” “That’s my boy,” he tells me. Then I start walking with a smile in place. I’ll never do it. Never! Watch them Justin. They are helping you. I watch them and see that they have lighted all the candles. “If we get caught and this doesn’t work,” Quinn says shaking his head. “This is going to be so bad for us.” “My baby,” Kevin says caressing my face. “Mama is going to buy you a mocking bird and if that mocking bird does not sing, mama is going to buy you a diamond ring,” he starts singing to me. “And if that diamond rings turns to rust, mama is going to…” “Shut the fuck up,” Cody hisses. “What the fuck is your problem, Kevin? Quiet. You have to stay quiet.” “Our pretty is a baby,” Kevin whispers. “A baby boy. Our baby boy.” “We so have to do something with you,” Quinn tells him shaking his head. “Places everyone,” Cody says. “Now what?” Quinn asks. “Each of us has to say their part at the same time over and over again. We do that until the candles are almost over,” Maximilian tells them. “Don’t cry,” Kevin says and giggles. “He’s going to be so smart.” “He already is smart,” Quinn says looking at Kevin. “Oh never mind.” Kevin stares at Quinn. “You weren’t here before.” “I know,” Quinn says. “What are you two babbling on about?” Max asks them. “Not now,” Cody says. Quinn wasn’t here before? Don’t ask me. I don’t know. I thought you said you knew everything. Oh wait, that we knew everything. Don’t worry about it. You won’t remember a thing. What do you mean? Shut up! You’re so rude! “Okay,” Max says. “Let’s start.” I watch them and hope that whatever they are doing will work. I have to save Brian. I can’t think of anything bad happening to him. If I free myself from this I’ll kill myself. Just as long as Brian gets to live I’ll do anything for him. Stop babbling. That’s nonsense. I can’t die. Of course we can. Nope. Our blood is immortal. This shell might die but we go on and find another and another. I focus on what they are saying instead of listening to the crazy part of myself. “To the stars and the moon with supernatural force do you travel let us borrow that power,” Max says over and over again. “To the voices that sing of truth let this come to be what it was supposed to,” Quinn said as fast as he can. “My force I do throw for the one I love,” Cody chants and I know he’s talking about me. “Let time let us through and back, for it to begin and unwrap,” Kevin murmurs again and again while his body rocks back and forth. What are they going to do with me? I have a bad feeling. He’s close. Then the door opens and Brian comes inside. “What the fuck is going on?” Brian asks angry. Cody gets up and blows a blue powder towards me. It falls on my face and my chest. “Stop it!” Brian growls as he unties my gag. “Justin?” “It’s going to be okay,” Cody says smiling. “I found a way to get Justin’s soul to merge with his demon.” “My father said you had to be strong enough to intertwine the soul and the demon,” Brian tells me. “Yes but this spell was found by Kevin,” Cody points out. “And in what I got from the translation it does the same thing.” “You’re meaning to tell me that you don’t know what it does?” Brian asks angry. My head hurts so much. It feels like it’s going to blow up. Please not again. Quinn gets up and moves closer. He touches my chest and pulls his hand away quickly. “Well, Kevin was the one that got it,” Cody protests. “He always knows what to do?” Brian looks doubtful as he looks from me to them and back at me. "I mean," Cody says. "I think I read something about it taking a bit more time. But hey, that's what we have most of...time." “What do you mean is going to take longer?” Max asks. “Did the spell worked?” “Uh, guys, I think it did,” Quinn says. “This has happened before. And I think…I think I know why Kevin was singing that damn lullaby.” “Our pretty baby!” Kevin yells and claps his hand. “I want everyone out of here now,” Brian tells them. Kevin starts to blow the candles. When he’s done Cody falls to his knees. “Daddy!” Kevin shrieks. Cody looks up with bloody tears. “Father.” “Cody,” Brian says kneeling in front of our boy. “What’s wrong? What the fuck have you done this time?” “The meanest kid in the land,” Quinn whispers in my ear before he backs away. “You’re an awful boy. You will end us all.” “Stop it,” Kevin growls at Quinn. “Our baby!” “What did you do?” Brian asked lifting Cody up. “Tell me now.” “He was like…like water and oil,” Cody tells him. “He wasn’t mixing and I found a way. It’s for you father and him. I love you both.” Brian growls as he pushes Cody’s body to me. “He’s dying. I don’t know how but he is.” “He gave his life,” Maximilian whispers. “Oh shit.” “No,” I tell him. “Please, Brian. Kill me now and it would stop this. Don’t let Cody die. Please.” “I’m sorry,” Brian says and backs away with Cody in his arms before placing Cody on the floor. “Kevin,” Max says. “Can we stop this?” “One hand then the other and now the legs,” Kevin said and clapped. “What a good boy!” “Forget it,” Quinn says looking at Kevin. “He’s going to be anything but good. He’ll still be the same.” “Kevin,” Max whimpers. “Please listen to me.” “Dun dun, dun dun, dun dun,” Kevin says caressing Max’s face. “It’s so close.” Brian gets up and walks over to me. He eyes me trying to figure out what’s going on. “I’m here,” I tell him. “And so am I,” I inform him. “You’re still him,” Brian whispers. “It’s always me,” I tell him and laugh. “Watch out, now comes the fun part.” That’s when I feel something cutting me on my chest. It hurts so much that for a second I think I’m going to pass out from the pain. “No!” Brian yells. “No!” “Ahh!” I scream when it happen again. Brian unties me and pulls me close. “Drink from me.” I have to. I’m bleeding all over and it hurts so much. So I drink from him as he carries me out. The wounds start to heal and then I arch up as another appears on my back. “Justin please,” Brian begs. “I’m not doing anything,” I say. “This is for the best,” I tell him caressing his face. “I want you safe.” “You’re going to stay with me,” he tells me. “You can’t leave me, not you.” “My dark prince,” I say as I smile. “I can see it now, bits and pieces. I see you standing there. The angels high above are preparing everything for you. You were scared but you held your ground. I was there too.” Brian caresses my face. “No you weren’t. I remember that day. There were angels only. And my father.” “I was there too,” I tell him again. I know I was. “The only other person was a friend of an angel or something,” Brian tells me. “They said he could be many people but you wouldn’t be him.” I smile at that. I know who that guy was. “I can’t remember what happened after that,” Brian whispered. “What am I?” “You’re precious,” I whispers and he shakes his head. “Never let me have you.” Brian growls and pulls me to him. “Please.” I yell as the bone in my leg breaks and the bone sticks out. “Shit,” Brian yells. “Not again.” “Oh god!” I yell when I realize what’s going on. “What?” Brian asks and stops in the middle of the hall to set me down. “What?” “It’s going back,” I whisper. “That’s what they did to me.” “What?” Brian asks frowning. So, guess what? What? I ask trying to push the pain away. They might be helping now but ultimately this is what helps me win. Shut up! Suddenly I feel something hitting me with such a force that sends me flying across the hall and away from Brian. I feel pain all around me and then I start to burn. When I look down at my legs they are okay. I’m reliving everything backwards. I start running while Brian chases me. “Justin!” Brian yells. “What’s going on?” I hear Quinn asking. Then they are all running trying to catch up with me. All I want is a cold place before I burn up. I have to find water. My blood is boiling and it hurts. It hurts so much. I run to the pool and jump in it when I get there. When I do everything is wrong. I’m not home. I’m in a lake and the water is black. I see myself growing up. I see the love that my father has for me. I learn to hate the people that put us here. I practice everyday how I’m going to kill Brian. I learn who I am and where I come from. I see how Brian and I become one to help my father. I know how to stop and sadly I know it won’t matter. I won’t remember any of it because of the spell that Cody, Quinn, Kevin and Maximilian had done. The water turns red and cold but I don’t fight it. I know Brian is going to save me. This is how it all begins. This is what my father has been planning all along. This is the day it begins before I strike down and kill Brian.