Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting Michael got out of the bed and went to take a shower. He didn’t know what to think of what had happened a few moments ago. He had woken up to find Brian sucking him and he had loved every minute of it. Then they had made love again and again and yet it didn’t feel nothing like ever before. Michael grabbed the soap and started cleaning himself all over; he was so angry with Brian. The man shook his head trying to tell himself that nothing was wrong. But he couldn’t deny that Brian had been acting weird. And while they had been fucking Brian had called him names that he had never used before. Michael started thinking that maybe Brian was seeing someone else as more than a trick. His heart exploded with pain. “Hey,” Brian said getting into the shower. “You should have waited for me.” Michael moved under the shower so Brian wouldn’t see his watered eyes. Then he turned around and smiled. “I knew you would follow.” Brian nodded and pulled him close. He kissed him hard and would have done more if the man hadn’t pulled away. “I’m done,” Michael said and quickly stepped out. The brunet frowned but didn’t say anything. He took his time showering. When he was done he stepped out and grabbed his towel. As he entered the bedroom again it was to find Michael writing something in bed. He threw the towel on the floor and sat behind Michael. “What are you doing?” “Working,” Michael told him. “Mmm,” Brian said as he started to kiss Michael’s neck. “Not now,” Michael told him. “I really have to do this.” “Is that more important than me?” Brian asked. Michael sighed and got up with his papers in hand. “You know my job might not be as big as yours but it’s important. I have to do it for tomorrow. I need to finish this Brian.” Brian leaned back in bed. “What the hell is going on?” Michael asked. “Did you take Viagra or what? We’ve been fucking since we woke up? Take a damn break or go out,” the man said. Brian sat up and glared at Michael’s retreating back. He then lay back once again. He rolled in bed and groaned because the only thing in his head was Justin and that only got him rock hard. He groaned and got up from bed to get dressed. He couldn’t help it; he had never been so horny in his life. When he was done he found Michael on the kitchen having a snack. He went after the man and stood behind him. He kissed Michael on the neck. “Brian,” Michael protested. “I’m sore already and I have work to do.” “And I really want to do you,” Brian told him. “Go out,” Michael said. “You know I’m okay with you tricking.” Brian pinched the bridge of his nose. “What’s the purpose of having a boyfriend then?” “Brian,” Michael whined. “Please, I’m really tired and I just want to finish doing my job,” the man said as he took a bite of his sandwich. Brian rolled his eyes. “Whatever the fuck,” he told Michael. “I’m going out.” “Finally,” Michael said and watched the man go. Then he moved to get the phone and called Emmett. “I need to see you,” he said when his friend answered. “What’s wrong with you?” Emmett asked. “I’m…” Michael sighed and sat down at Brian’s desk. Tears started to fall and he sniffled. “Brian woke up very horny today you know. And I was so into it thinking it was because of me.” “What are you talking about?” Emmett asked. “He called me his dirty little boy and baby and he’d never done that before,” Michael said. “Could it be that he’s starting now?” Emmett couldn’t believe what he was hearing. “I know Brian would never cheat on you, Michael. I mean he tricks but you know about that.” “You don’t understand,” Michael told him. “These past weeks Brian is growing apart from me. And he never tells me what’s wrong with him now. He used to before. And when he looks at me is like he’s expecting someone else,” the man informed his friend. “And when we fucked it was like…like he wasn’t there at all.” Emmett wished he could make his friend feel better. He thought that maybe Michael was overreacting. “And now suddenly it's like he can’t get enough of me or he’s fucking everything that moves,” Michael pointed out. “For some reason he’s not like before and I don’t know what to do.” Emmett sighed. “I’m going there and I’m taking Ted with me.” “Okay,” Michael whispered. He hung up the phone and let it all out. He couldn’t stop crying no matter what. The thought of Brian being with another man more than once was killing him. The only thing in his head was the words ‘my baby boy’ when Brian had groaned them to him. Michael was older than Brian and the brunet had never called him his baby. It was just something that Brian didn’t do, that only made Michael cry much harder. *** Emmett kissed Justin on the cheek and smiled brightly when Justin turned to look at him. “Hey,” Justin said smiling. “How are you?” “Good,” Emmett said. “Ted and Michael are here,” he said and looked to where the guys were at on the bar. “We’re trying to cheer Michael up,” he whispered. Justin frowned. “What? Why?” “He and Brian are having some problems,” Emmett related. “He thinks that Brian is cheating on him or something.” Justin nodded slowly before he went back to stare at his drink. For a moment he had thought that Brian had broken up with Michael. And how he wished that were the case. He shook his head slightly not believing himself. He had never in his life wanted to see someone in pain but if he had to see Michael suffering because the brunet had left him; he would take it. He looked towards Michael and wanted to laughed at the irony of it all, now that he and Brian had stopped seeing each other was when Michael suspected something, it didn’t make sense. “What about you?” Emmett asked frowning. “You don’t seem all that hot either.” Justin smiled and finished his drink. “I’m just dealing with everything. You know, work and family, it’s a bit stressful.” “Want to dance?” Emmett asked. “Let’s shake those troubles away for a while.” “Okay,” Justin accepted. He was trying to have some fun but it was like a part of him was dead. Since he had stopped seeing Brian his life had no meaning. It was odd because before Brian he was sure that his life wasn’t missing anything, now there was no point to it. “Come on,” Emmett said laughing. “Shake that butt.” Justin laughed a bit. “Thank you, Emmett,” he told the man because the taller guy had made him laugh. “I know you don’t trust me yet,” Emmett said and it was only fair since he and Justin hadn’t know each other for that long. “But I could be a good friend and if there is anything you need or if you need someone to talk to, I’m here for you.” Justin nodded slowly. He only wished he could tell someone about his problems. Find someone who could tell him what he should do to make it all better. “Hey,” Emmett whispered as he cleared the tear that Justin let out. “You’re crying.” “God,” Justin said and quickly headed for the bar. “Justin,” Emmett said frowning and followed the blond. “Don’t worry about it Emmett,” Justin told him. “I’m okay.” Emmett sighed knowing it wasn’t true. He wished he could help Justin out but the blond wasn’t opening up. “I want to leave,” Michael said. “Hey, Justin.” “Hi,” Justin said feeling very much out of breath. “Brian is being an asshole,” Michael said. He had watched Brian take so many trips to the backroom and all the while ignoring him. “And I’m tired of this shit.” Justin didn’t even know that Brian was there. He tried not to but couldn’t help to look around to see if he saw the brunet. “I could go get the car,” Ted offered. “Hello boys,” Brian said grinning. He licked his lips as he looked at Justin then at Michael. He glared at both of them and then at Emmett and Ted as well for effect. “What’s with you?” Michael asked. “Having fun,” Brian told him. He asked for a drink and in one move swallowed it all. “And I have found the perfect guy for tonight,” he said and headed towards the trick. Michael bit his lower lip. “Don’t cry,” Ted quickly said. “We should leave.” “He’s leaving,” Emmett told them as he watched Brian. Justin watched as Brian didn’t even acknowledge Michael before he left with the trick. Michael turned around and headed for the bathroom, Ted was hot on his heels. “Poor Michael,” Emmett said sighing. “Brian can be such an asshole sometimes.” Justin knew that sometimes Brian didn’t make the best choices. That if he wanted to hurt you he knew how to do so exactly. “I have to go,” he told Emmett. “Already?” Emmett asked almost pouting. He threw his arms around Justin. “Yeah,” Justin said. “And you should go to Michael. He doesn’t look too good.” “Ah, it will be okay,” Emmett assured him. “Brian and Michael are like this all the time. They fight about something and then they are back together. Brian has Michael wrapped around his fingers. I wish Michael would just leave him. Not that I want to cause anyone harm but they are just not meant for each other.” “You would know,” Justin replied. He kissed Emmett on the cheek. “I’ll see you around.” “You take care, baby,” Emmett said and went to see how Michael was doing. Justin got out of there and to his surprise Brian was a few feet away in the alley kissing with the trick against the Jeep. He didn’t know why but he walked over to them. When Brian saw the blond he pulled away from the guy and smiled at the blond. “Hello Sunshine,” Brian said. Justin shook his head. “I can’t believe you Brian.” Brian looked at the trick from head to toe. “Get lost.” “But I thought…” The trick argued. “Now,” Brian added very strongly. “Asshole,” the man whispered but Brian and Justin still heard him. “Let’s go for a ride,” Brian said as he pushed Justin against the Jeep. “Stop it,” Justin hissed. “How can you be doing this?” “Doing what?” Brian asked. “Acting like a total idiot with Michael,” Justin said and felt like crying because of what he really wanted to say him. He wanted to ask Brian why he could choose Michael and not him. “This is your chance to fix things and this is what you do,” he said as he moved away. “You don’t know fucking shit!” Brian yelled. Just then the guys were coming out of Babylon. They heard Brian screaming at the blond and moved in their direction. Justin hadn’t seen them but Brian was aware that they were listening to them. “He loves you!” Justin yelled. “That’s what you wanted. You wanted to have a wonderful life with Michael. Then stop being an asshole and cherish what you have. He would do anything for you,” Justin said and it was sad that he would do too. His eyes watered as he shook his head. “If you throw it all away then what was the point?” Brian knew what the question was about. What was the point of them breaking up, of him not fighting to be with Justin if he was going to throw everything he had with Michael away? After all it had been him that said that he couldn’t leave the older man and now he was acting like a total ass. But if Justin only knew how much he missed him. “I have to go,” Justin said leaving the man. “Justin,” Emmett said running after the blond. “What was that all about?” Michael asked. Ted frowned feeling out of place. “I’m going to catch up to them,” he said and quickly walked away. “He was telling me I was being an asshole,” Brian pointed out. “Like everyone else does.” Michael sighed. “I don’t want to fight with you Brian, but you have been acting so strange.” Brian smirked and then used his tongue in cheek expression. “If you don’t like it you can fuck off,” he said as he got on his Jeep and drove out of there. And how he hoped that Michael did really leave him, and then he would be free to do whatever he wanted; to be with whoever he chose. *** Justin was seriously thinking of going someplace else for breakfast from now on, but the diner was so close to the loft. He sighed when Evan ran towards Brian. “Hey, Brian,” Evan said happily. “Today is Saturday.” “I know,” Brian told him and grabbed his cup of coffee. “Sit down,” he said moving closer to Michael. “Come on, Justin,” Evan said as he sat down. “How are Gus and Jenny?” Justin was walking as slow as he could. When he reached the table he didn’t sit down. “Come Evan, we don’t want to bother the guys.” “It's no bother sweetie,” Emmett said grabbing Justin by the wrist. “Come on, sit down.” Justin let himself be pulled into the booth. Then Emmett threw his arm around his shoulder and he felt protected. He looked up at Emmett and smiled, truly smiled. Brian bit his tongue, the inside of his cheek, rolled his lower lip inside his mouth and bit it too. It was taking all his power not to grab Emmett by the throat and choke the life out of him. He decided to focus on what Evan was talking about. “Justin is taking me to the park today,” Evan informed the brunet. “Could Gus and Jenny come?” Brian smiled widely, but before he could answer Justin intervened. “We can’t go today,” Justin said seeing Brian’s intention as clear as day. “I’ll take you some other time.” Evan frowned a bit and pouted for effect. Justin rolled his eyes and stood by his decision. “What do you want for breakfast my darling angel?” Debbie asked smiling as she caressed Evan’s face. “I want some pancakes and bacon,” Evan told her but he sounded so heartbroken. “With orange juice.” “Are you sick?” Debbie asked checking him quickly. “He’s just showing you his dramatic abilities,” Justin said smirking. “I have no idea where he learns that from,” Brian said. “Good one,” Evan said and laughed with Brian and the guys. Justin was the one pouting now. “I’ll have my usual.” Debbie smiled and pinched Justin’s cheek. “You two are so cute, Sunshine.” Brian smiled at that. “What if Brian takes me like last time?” Evan asked. Justin sighed. “Brian has more important things to…” “Okay,” Brian said, this time before Justin could tell anything else to his brother. “I’ll go get Gus and we’ll have a good time.” Justin wanted to glare but he smiled. “Thanks Brian.” “So, you two aren’t fighting anymore?” Emmett asked as he looked from Brian to Justin. “We weren’t fighting,” Brian said. “Justin was just telling me what he thought.” “It was none of my business,” Justin pointed out. “Go wash up, Evan.” Brian got up as well. He had to go to the bathroom too. “Justin,” Michael said when they were done. “Thanks for trying. That was nice of you.” The blond groaned inwardly. “Here we go,” Debbie said putting the plate in front of Justin. “Where is Evan?” “He’s in the restroom,” Justin told her. “Well, here is his food,” Debbie said and then left to help other customers. “Justin,” Evan said when he sat down. This time he was in the middle of Brian and Michael. “Brian said that Gus is staying with him. Can I stay too?” Justin smiled and nodded. He looked at Brian wondering what the man was playing at. It was like the brunet wanted to be in his life one way or another and Justin didn’t know if he was going to be strong enough or if temptation was going to win. *** Emmett got up and went over to Justin. He had invited the blond to go to Woody’s with them. He wasn’t sure if the blond was going to make it. Lately Justin was making up excuses left and right about all the work he had not to go out. “You’re looking great,” Emmett told him. Justin smiled. “I need a beer.” “Right this way,” Emmett said and lead the way. “Beers all around on me,” Justin told Ted and Emmett. “Someone is happy,” Ted pointed out with a smile. “I got a call from my manager,” Justin informed them. “I have an art show in New York. It’s so great.” “I’m so happy for you,” Emmett said hugging him. “I really liked the show you did here,” Ted said. “I didn’t know you have gone,” Justin said. He had invited them but the only ones that he got to see were Emmett and Brian. “I went after opening night and it was during the day,” Ted informed him. “During my lunch break.” “Nice,” Justin said smirking. He was happy that he would get to go to New York. “What is all the commotion?” Brian asked. He had seen Emmett and Justin hugging and they were all smiles. He wanted to know what was happening. “What are you doing here?” Justin asked frowning. “Justin is having a show in New York,” Emmett told Brian. “Isn’t that great?” “Brian, what are you doing here?” Justin asked yet again. “It’s a free country,” Brian pointed out with a smile and took a sip of his beer. “Congratulations.” Justin glared at him. “I thought you were taking care of Gus and Evan.” “They fell asleep,” Brian replied. “So what?” Justin asked angry. “You asked if Evan could stay and I said yes because I thought you would be watching him.” “Michael is watching them,” Brian told him. “Let’s play pool.” “I’m going home,” Justin informed them. “No,” Emmett said stopping him. “Come on. Michael can take care of them. It’s okay.” Justin sighed and bought the beers he promised. He even got one for Brian as well. When they started to play pool Brian took him as partner. They won the first game but then Justin helped Emmett cheat and Ted and him won the second one. “That’s not fair,” Brian said as he grabbed Justin and pulled him towards him. “You helped them win. I’m going to get you,” he said and started to tickle the blond. “Oh god,” Justin said laughing. “Stop it. Okay, I’m sorry.” Emmett and Ted laughed. “I’m going to get some more beers,” Ted informed them. “I’m going to the bathroom,” Emmett said and left as well. “Let me go,” Justin said when Brian had stopped and held him by the wrists. “What if I don’t want to?” Brian asked sexily and pinned Justin against the pool table. Justin frowned. “Brian, please.” “You always did like to beg,” Brian whispered close to Justin’s ear. “Brian, I need your cock.” “Why are you doing this?” Justin asked him. “Because I want you,” Brian replied. “I want to fuck you hard and hear you calling my name.” Justin’s cock stirred in his pants. He looked up at Brian and wanted to devour the man. “Here,” Ted said holding two beers in each hand. Justin took the opportunity to move away. He grabbed his beer and walked away. Brian was certain than Justin wanted him as much as he wanted the blond. Then he could have committed murder when a guy went to talk to the blond and they disappeared towards the bathroom. “On for another game?” Ted asked. Brian shook his head and headed towards the bathroom as well. When he got in there Emmett was coming out. “Hey,” Emmett said. “Ted wants to play another game with you,” Brian informed him. “Okay,” Emmett said as he headed towards the pool table. Brian looked around but Justin wasn’t there. He waited and then his doubts were confirmed when he heard the blond moaning. He knew it was Justin; his blond. It hurt so much to be there and not be the one giving Justin pleasure. Someone else was in there taking what was his; he couldn’t take it. He left the restroom and then got out of Woody’s. “Hey,” Justin said when he came out. “Where is Brian?” “I think he left,” Ted said. “How about another round?” Justin smiled and nodded. He went and bought three beers and took them to the guys. He drank for a while longer before they headed to Babylon. He danced with Emmett and even Ted. He had a good time with his friends. Then he headed home and when he got there he had someone waiting for him. “Had fun?” Brian asked. Justin who had gotten out of the elevator almost had a heart attack. Brian was sitting on the first step of the stairs leading to Justin’s floor. “You scared the shit out of me,” Justin told him and took a deep breath. “Damn Brian, what are you doing here?” Brian shrugged and then got up. “We need to talk.” “No, we don’t,” Justin told him opening the door to his loft but he didn’t go inside or opened it. “Go home Brian.” “I want to go in there with you,” Brian said pushing Justin against the door. “I want to erase him from you.” Justin pushed Brian away. “You want me then you know what you have to do. I’m serious, Brian. Go home to Michael. That’s what you wanted, now live with it.” Brian sighed. “I didn’t plan for this. You know that, Justin. I…” “Goodnight Brian,” Justin said sliding the door open and going inside. Before Brian had anything else to say he closed the door. Then he locked it and slowly slid to the floor. If Brian knocked and asked to be let in he would open it. He would get naked and let Brian do whatever he wanted. He wasn’t sure where he got the strength to push Brian away. He knew that he was growing weaker and sooner or later they were going to be back were they started. He only wished that Brian made a decision, a real one. Not staying with Michael and still looking for him. Brian stared at the closed door for a few seconds before he turned around and went to his loft. When he got there Michael, Evan and Gus were all sleeping in front of the TV. He turned it off and threw a duvet over all of them. He looked at Evan and smiled, the kid reminded him of Justin so much. He looked at Michael and wondered what would happen if he broke up with him. He was sure that being with Justin was going to make him stop from feeling so empty inside. He set the alarm and went to bed thinking of the first thing he thought each morning when he woke up and each night when he went to sleep; his blond.