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Justin groaned as he turned around in the bed. “Evan, come on,” he groaned thinking that his brother was the one knocking at his door. He sat up and looked around in the dark. He realized that it wasn’t the door at his room because for one it was open. He got up and went to see what Brian wanted. Who else it could be, Justin thought. “Justin,” Brian said as he quickly got inside. “What’s going on?” Justin asked. Brian pulled him into his arms and kissed him hard. He picked the blond up and carried him to the bed. He put Justin down and took off the blond’s pajamas. He reached for the lube inside his pockets as well as the condom. He pulled out his hard cock and put the condom on. Justin watched him in silence. He was still half asleep and even if he was completely awake he wouldn’t be stopping Brian. “God,” Brian groaned when he started opening Justin. “So tight.” Justin moaned and wrapped his legs around Brian. The brunet didn’t lose anymore time. When he was sure that Justin was ready for him he entered him. Their lovemaking was fast and hard. When the brunet was done he got rid of the condom and zipped his pants. “I have to go,” Brian told him. Justin got on his elbows with a frown. “Well, fuck me.” “I just did,” Brian pointed out with a smirk. “What was that?” Justin asked as he got up. He felt so used by the brunet. “What?” Brian asked. “Don’t tell me you didn’t like it.” “I did,” Justin assured him. “But what is this? You’re leaving?” Brian sighed. “I have to get back.” Justin crossed his arms and his body shook with anger. “Michael is with you tonight?” Brian didn’t answer. “Fuck you, Brian,” Justin hissed. “Have you lost your mind?” “I needed to see you,” Brian told him. Justin’s heart softened. He wished he could be stronger when it concerned Brian. “Fine, leave.” Brian started to leave but then stopped. “I have to tell you something.” Justin sat down in the bed. He didn’t ask what already thinking the worst. He waited for Brian to say what he needed. Brian cleared his throat. “Justin, the other days Michael…he asked me if…well,” Brian was trying to tell the blond what was going to happen. He took a deep breath and let it out slowly. “Just tell me,” Justin said his voice breaking. He didn’t want to think that the brunet was leaving him. It would crush him to a million pieces. “He’s moving in,” Brian informed him. Justin made a small gasping sound. Brian didn’t know if it was hurt or shock or what. “Fuck,” Justin whispered. Brian walked over to the blond and sat next to him. He caressed Justin’s face and then moved his hand to take hold of Justin’s own. “So does this mean is over?” Justin asked. “What?” Brian asked. “When would you have time for me?” Justin asked. “I don’t know,” Brian said. “I…I don’t want to.” “But we are so going to get caught, Brian,” Justin pointed out. He got up and crossed his arms. He knew what he had to do. “Brian, please leave.” “I’m not going anywhere, Justin,” Brian said firmly. “No,” Justin said shaking his head even thought it was dark and Brian probably didn’t see the gesture. “I want you to leave.” Brian got up and started walking slowly. “And I don’t want you to come back,” Justin added. Brian stopped and felt as his heart dropped to the floor. “Justin.” “No,” Justin said; he was sure he was doing the right thing. They should have never started seeing each other in the first place. “Leave and don’t come back, please.” Brian didn’t say anything this time. He left the blond telling himself it was for the best. *** Justin walked with Evan to the diner. He had woken up late and he needed to buy something to feed his brother before he sent him to school. The food from the diner was way better than any McDonalds or Burger Kings he could find on the way. He almost turned around when he saw Brian and Michael there. Before he could say anything Evan took running to where Brian was. “Hey Brian,” Evan said smiling widely. “Hello,” Brian said smiling. “How are you sport?” “I’m good,” Evan assured him and looked at Michael. “Who is this?” “This is Michael,” Justin said. “He’s Brian’s boyfriend.” “But…” Evan said and stopped. He frowned and looked at Brian. “But what?” Michael asked. Evan looked up at his brother and then back at Michael. He shrugged and looked at Brian. “I thought…” “Evan what do you want for breakfast?” Justin asked before Evan could say anything else. “Go sit down over there so you can look at the menu.” Evan nodded and did what his brother told him. “Now I’m going to explain to him about gay couples,” Justin said giving Michael a smile. He had to make something up as to why Evan was acting so strange. “I thought he knew you were gay,” Michael said. “He had an idea, but there are many things he doesn’t know,” Justin said. “He’s going to be living with me now. So might as well start talking to him now.” Michael nodded as he looked at the blond. “You could sit with us.” “Oh,” Justin said smiling. “I don’t want to bother you guys. Thanks anyway,” he told the man. Brian kept staring at his cup of coffee. He felt like a total shit. “I have to go,” Justin said. “We’ll be late.” Michael watched him go. “I think he’s a great guy.” “Whatever,” Brian said. “You don’t even know him.” “Oh come on,” Michael said digging into his scrambled eggs. “He’s okay. He has hung out with Emmett a few times.” “I thought you didn’t like him,” Brian pointed out. He was getting irritated talking about Justin. “I just didn’t like the idea of you fucking him,” Michael said. “I still could,” Brian pointed out and frowned wondering why he was having that conversation with the man in front of him. “But Justin wouldn’t fuck you,” Michael pointed out. “He’s not the kind of guy that would do something like that. I mean, he knows you’re with me.” “Right,” Brian said grabbing his cup of coffee. He went back to reading his paper and trying really hard not to think of Justin. “Are you okay?” Michael asked. “Yes,” Brian murmured. “Are you sure, Brian?” Michael asked. “Suddenly you don’t look too well.” “Whatever, I’m fine,” Brian said as he folded the newspaper and got up. He grabbed his shades and put them on. “I have to go to work.” Michael nodded slowly. He was starting to pout because Brian was already leaving. Brian bent down and kissed Michael goodbye before he was gone. Justin had seen the kiss as he stood at the counter asking for his and his brother’s breakfast. He swallowed his pain and went back to sit with Evan. Then he waited like nothing was wrong. Like a guy who was completely alone would wait with his brother. There was nothing wrong with watching a couple kiss; except when you were in love with one of the guys kissing. *** “What are you still doing here?” Emmett asked as he put his empty glass on the bar. “Brian is one of his moods,” Michael said. “It’s because we moved in together. He’s doing the pulling away thing, so I left him home to brood.” “Oh,” Ted said shaking his head. “Whoever thought Brian Kinney would be married.” “I wish,” Michael said and laughed. “Justin!” Emmett yelled when he saw the blond. He waved at the blond to go to him. “Hey,” Justin said when he stood in front of Emmett. He looked at Ted and then at Michael. The thought of Brian being alone at the loft crossed his mind. “I’ve seen you,” Emmett said and laughing. “Aren’t you exhausted?” “What do you mean?” Michael asked. “He’s been inspecting the backroom,” Ted pointed out. “Over and over and over again.” Emmett laughed at that. “My baby is a real stud.” Justin shook his head. “Not really.” “Watch out Brian,” Ted said. “This could be the new king of Babylon.” “Yeah right,” Michael said frowning. “No one could ever be like Brian.” Justin agreed on his mind. “I have to go. I have a babysitter at home that is probably dying for me to get there.” “You’re little brother can’t be that bad,” Emmett pointed out. “Stay and have a drink with me.” “Okay,” Justin agreed. “Boys,” Brian said as he put one arm around Emmett and the other around Justin. “What are you up to?” “Brian,” Michael said smiling as he leaned closer to his boyfriend and kissed him. Justin wanted to punch the man right there and tell him to fuck off. But then again why would he punch Michael except he went totally crazy or was completely jealous. Slowly he moved away, so that Brian couldn’t touch him. It was killing him to have Brian touch him and yet it was pure torture once Brian’s arm wasn’t there. “What are you doing here?” Michael asked. “I thought you had a lot of work to do.” “I do,” Brian said as he looked back to the dance floor only because it would give him a chance to look at Justin. “But I decided to take a break.” Justin felt like he was drowning. He had to get out of there. He took the beer that Emmett gave him. Then he drank as fast as he could. “Careful,” Brian said as he pulled the bottle down. “You don’t want to choke on it. There are better things to choke on.” “Leave him alone, Brian,” Michael said wrapping his arms around Brian’s waist. The brunet and Justin shared an intense look. And in that look one was asking for forgiveness and the other one sending the other to hell. Justin looked at his watch and moved to the bar. He drank the last of his beer. “Are you leaving?” Emmett asked. “Yeah,” Justin told them. “I have to go.” “But you haven’t danced with me,” Emmett protested. Brian’s blood was boiling. “Maybe he has someone to get back to.” “Nobody other than Evan,” Justin said. “Come on, Emmett. One dance.” Brian watched them go. He asked for a drink and when he finished it he dragged Michael to the dance floor. The closer that Justin danced to Emmett the more Brian touched and kissed Michael. Justin was so pissed he could march up to Brian and punch him right on the face for being such a fucking asshole. “I have to go now,” Justin said looking up at Emmett. “Okay baby,” Emmett said and kissed Justin on the forehead. “Fucking bastard,” Brian growled. “What?” Michael asked. “Who?” Brian looked at his boyfriend and frowned. He bent down and kissed him to quiet him. He imagined he was kissing his blond but that didn’t work. He grabbed Michael’s hand and dragged him to the backroom. He fucked the man hard and fast and as much as he tried it didn’t come anywhere near what he felt with Justin. *** Justin went to the door ready to tell Brian to fuck off but to his surprise it was Brian and Michael and two toddlers. He swallowed trying not to focus all his attention on Brian. “Yes?” “We were going to the park and we thought that you might want to come with Evan,” Michael said. Brian put his son down and hoped Justin said yes. When Michael said ‘we’ it was more like he was the one that had thought about it. “Oh,” Justin said. “Let me go ask him. Come on inside and sit down.” Brian and Michael moved inside with the kids. The brunet was ecstatic. He was certain that Evan would say yes. The kid loved sports and to be jumping around. “I’m going to fix a bag with a few things for Evan,” Justin said when he came back. He left again and was cursing in his mind. He wanted to strangle the brunet for doing that to him. When everything was done Evan walked up to Michael and Brian. “I’m ready. Oh my god. Who are these two?” “This is my daughter Jenny and this is Brian’s son Gus,” Michael said. “Hi,” Gus said looking up shyly at Evan. “Are you my friend?” Brian smiled widely. “Of course not,” Michael said. “You just met him.” Brian frowned as he looked at his boyfriend. “We can be friends,” Evan assured the boy as he took his hand. “Well, let’s go,” Brian said getting up. Justin pulled out a twenty dollar bill. “Here you go Brian. So you can buy Evan anything if he get’s hungry.” “You’re not coming?” Michael asked. “I’m too busy,” Justin said. “I have so much work to do. I have an art show in a few weeks.” “Oh,” Michael said. “Okay then. We’ll take care of Evan.” Brian could have bitch slapped his boyfriend right then. He wanted Justin to go, that had been the whole plan. “Thank you,” Justin said and bent down to kiss his brother. “Be good.” “Yes,” Evan said taking Gus’s hand. “Let’s go.” Justin watched them go and then closed the door. A few seconds later there was a knock on the door. It was Brian and this time he was alone. “What do you want?” Justin asked a bit defensively. “To give you this,” Brian said giving the blond back his money. “I told Michael that we shouldn’t take it and he agreed.” “Take it,” Justin insisted. “In case he needs it.” “He won’t,” Brian assured him. “I can buy him anything he wants.” “Just take it, Brian,” Justin said. “Just go please.” “Why?” Brian asked taking two big steps towards the blond. “Why?” “You know why,” Justin answered. Brian lifted his hand and caressed Justin’s face. The blond’s eyelids closed immediately. His whole body vibrated with Brian’s touch. It was taking everything in Brian to stop himself from devouring the smaller man. “Go, please,” Justin told him but his body was begging for other things. Brian pulled away. He walked by a table that Justin kept by the entrance and put the money there. Then he left closing the door behind him. Justin wrapped his arms around himself. He had never felt so alone in all his life. *** When Justin came out of his studio it was to find Michael on the kitchen while Evan talked a mile per minute. He wondered what the fuck was going on. “Hey, Michael.” “Justin,” Michael said smiling. “I came to invite you to my mom’s house. She’s having dinner tonight for the whole family.” “I was offering him something to drink because you said that it’s polite to do so,” Evan announced. Justin nodded. “Uh, I don’t know if I can make it.” “Oh come on, you have to go,” Michael said. “Gus has been asking nonstop for Evan.” Evan smiled widely. “Can we go?” Justin wondered what it was about the Taylor boys not being able to resist the Kinney heritage. He sighed and nodded slowly. His brother didn’t have to be punished for his mistakes. “Sure, we’ll be there.” “You can hitch a ride with us,” Michael announced. “I’ll come around six.” Before Justin had a chance to react Michael was gone. Justin looked at Evan who was starting at him with an unreadable expression. “Go take a shower.” Evan nodded as he put back the juice pitcher and closed the fridge. He walked to his room happy that he was going to see Gus and Jenny again. Justin took a deep breath and went to get ready as well. He was glad that he had thought of putting a bathroom to each room. When he was done he got dressed and then changed. He looked himself in the mirror and changed again. He changed two more times before he was happy with what he had on. Around six fifteen Michael and Brian arrived to get them. Evan was the only one talking on the way to Debbie’s house. He was excited about seeing Gus and Jenny. The blond wondered if his brother had any friends because he never heard as much about any one else as he heard about Gus and Jenny. “We’re here,” Brian said and helped Evan jump from the back of the Jeep. When they were at the door Brian stood really close to Justin. It was like their bodies pulled each other together. “Baby,” Debbie said kissing Michael before she hugged him. “Come inside.” Brian went after Michael and Evan smiled at Debbie. “Hey,” he said waving. “Oh,” Debbie said bending down and hugging Evan. “He’s so beautiful.” “Hey Debbie,” Justin said smiling. They had met each other before at the diner. “Hello Sunshine,” Debbie said pulling the blond inside. “We’re ready to eat.” Justin was happy when he sat in between Emmett and Evan and far away from Brian. He ate and talked and laughed with all of them. He was having a good time until they moved to the living room. When he sat on the sofa Brian was the one that sat next to him. “Be careful,” Brian called out when Gus and Evan started running around. “Gus is smitten with him,” Lindsay said. “Yeah,” Justin said smiling. “That’s so great.” “He doesn’t stop talking about Evan,” Melanie said. “They are adorable,” Debbie said setting down a plate in Justin’s hand of lemon bars. “Thank you,” Justin told her and started eating. “My son so has a crush on Evan,” the brunet said with a grin. “He’s four years old,” Ted pointed out. “That’s not too soon to show how gay he’s going to be,” Brian told him and smiled. Justin laughed as he shook his head. “You’re crazy.” Brian threw his arm around Justin. “You won’t be saying that when they are old enough to get married.” Justin stayed quiet and wished Brian would pull his arm away. He turned his head a bit and the brunet’s cologne hit him full force. He crossed his legs and tried to control his urges. Brian was battling such feelings himself so when he couldn’t control it anymore he got up and went out for a smoke. He stayed outside for a while after he was done with the cigarette; he was going insane with so many thoughts. He wanted Justin so badly and couldn’t have him, shouldn’t have him. He knew that if Michael ever found out it would break his heart. Now Justin was part of the family and they had to keep away from each other. “Brian,” Michael said. Brian turned around. “What?” “Come on,” the man said. “You’ve been here for quite a while. It’s late.” “I know,” Brian said as he went back inside with his boyfriend. For another hour and a half Justin had to suffer in silence. Seeing everyone talking and laughing and then Brian and Michael sitting next to one another sharing caresses and from time to time some kisses. It was going to give him nightmares for the rest of the night and possibly his life. “I think it's time to go,” Brian said when he saw that Gus and Evan had fallen asleep on the rug. He got up and stretched a bit. “I think you’re right,” Melanie said standing up. Michael got up and went to kiss Jenny who was fussing a bit in Lindsay’s arms. Then he grabbed the keys to the Jeep. Brian took Evan while Melanie grabbed Gus. “I can take him,” Justin offered. “That’s okay,” Brian assured him. Everyone said goodbye to each other and they were on their way. Brian had put Evan in the back and Justin had sat with him but when they arrived the brunet took the little blond once again. “You don’t have to bother,” Justin said when they were in the elevator. “Don’t worry, Justin,” Michael said. “Brian has a big heart like that.” Brian snorted. “Even if he tries to deny it,” Michael said and laughed with glee. Justin bit his lower lip over and over again to keep from screaming. When they arrived at his floor he went to open the door quickly. When he stepped aside to let the guys in it was only Brian with Evan in his arms. Justin felt himself shaking with worry. “I told Michael to go ahead,” Brian explained then he walked to the boy’s room and put him on his bed. “There,” Brian said. Justin watched the brunet and wanted to jump him. The man’s cologne was driving him crazy. And Brian was wearing the red sleeveless shirt that drove him mad with lust, the brunet knew it too. “I should go,” Brian told the blond. “Yes,” Justin replied. The two of them walked out of Evan’s room and into the living room. Brian stopped and turned to look at Justin. “What?” Justin asked and swallowed. “I think that this thing that has happened between you and me was something else. But we had to end it because we’ll just hurt everyone else,” Brian told him. “You were right about me not coming back here again.” Justin nodded slowly. “Michael doesn’t deserve to be hurt,” Brian said. “Yeah,” Justin agreed. “He’s a good guy.” Brian nodded absently. “Have a good night,” Justin told him. Brian leaned down and kissed Justin’s lips. “Goodbye, Justin.” Justin’s heart got crushed, thorns taking possession of it. He pulled back and put on a brave front. “Bye Brian.” Brian had already learned to walk with a heavy heart. So he turned around and left the loft to go to his loft, but not his home. It had stopped being that a long time ago.