Inside you it’s Only what I crave Brian stirred as he felt a hot mouth engulf his cock. It was the best dream ever. His eyes opened the instant he shot his cum. He was breathing hard and trying to calm down. “That’s what I call a healthy breakfast,” Justin growled in his ear. Brian smirked and then frowned slowly when he felt his wet ass. “Justin?” “Did I fuck you?” Justin asked and laughed. “No, I prepared you.” Before Brian could say anything else the blond was pushing his legs open and entering him. He was really surprised and he knew that there would be a day when he was going to wake up and Justin was already going to be fucking him. “So, good,” Justin told him. Brian’s hips moved up trying to feel Justin’s cock deeper inside himself. His legs wrapped tightly around Justin’s narrow hips. Justin’s hand caressed Brian’s sweaty chest before he leaned down and started sucking on Brian’s nipples. “Fuck,” Brian hissed as he fisted Justin’s hair. He loved when Justin played with his nipples; Justin’s tongue was a lethal weapon. Justin’s hips started to move faster and faster. Brian always made him lose control. He buried his head in the crook of Brian’s neck. He inhaled deeply letting Brian’s smell fill his nostrils. It got him every time, they would be talking to each other or simply walking along side but if Justin’s got hit with Brian’s unique scent he got horny as hell. “Mmm,” Brian growled as Justin pounded into him. He pulled on Justin’s hair and when the blond lifted his head the brunet kissed him. He loved sticking his tongue inside Justin. The taste made him shake with pleasure. Every time he wanted more and more. “So close,” Justin grunted. Brian nodded as he started fisting his cock. Justin pushed Brian’s hand away and took care of it himself. He loved to feel Brian’s cock pulsing in his hand when the brunet was cumming. Brian sucked on Justin’s lower lip and then nibbled at it. Justin’s free hand grabbed Brian’s chestnut, sweaty hair. His hips stabbed Brian over and over again. Brian felt his balls contracting and he felt the shock waves undulate throughout his body. His hips arched impossibly and he shot his cum in between them. “Yes,” Justin hissed as Brian’s walls gripped him. He kissed Brian hard as his body shook with his orgasm. When all their movements stopped Justin stayed there, happily feeling his and Brian’s aftershocks. “Get off of me,” Brian told him. Justin pulled out. He got rid of the condom. “We need a shower,” Brian muttered as he got up. Justin nodded and slapped Brian’s butt. “That’s mine.” Brian narrowed his eyes. “Stop doing that.” Justin chuckled. “I can do whatever the fuck I want.” “But don’t hit my butt,” Brian growled. Justin seemed to laugh harder. He loved touching Brian’s butt. So he did again and Brian pushed him away. “Justin!” Brian’s voice echoed through the loft. “What?” Justin asked innocently. “I like it.” Brian rolled his eyes as he got in the shower. Justin followed him in. They started by washing each other but it turned into something else. It started innocently enough with a kiss. By the time Brian opened his eyes again he was pulling away from Justin to get some oxygen into his lungs. “I want you,” Justin hissed and pushed the brunet against the wall. He rubbed his hard cock against Brian’s thigh as his mouth sucked on Brian’s nipple. “Ah,” Brian’s head fell back. Justin attacked the brunet’s neck and reached for Brian’s cock at the same time. He was on fire and he wanted to be inside of the taller man yet again. He turned Brian to face the wall. He grabbed a condom and in seconds he was back inside the warm tunnel. This time they took their time. The blond moved back holding on to Brian’s hips. Brian opened his legs more his hands holding on to the wet tiles. His eyes closed as Justin started to fuck him languidly. His hands caressed Brian’s back. He pulled on Brian’s hairs one hand played with the taller man’s nipples. “I want to hear you moan,” Justin told him. Brian sighed and closed his eyes. He didn’t like to moan but he knew that Justin could make him. He didn’t even know how the blond did it. Justin stopped his movements. “Brian.” “Fuck me,” Brian growled. Justin smirked and gripped Brian’s hips as he pushed inside. His hands stretched Brian’s ass cheeks apart. “Justin!” Brian yelled his body rutted back against the man. Justin left his hard cock deep in Brian as he rotated his hips. “Of fuck!” Brian groaned when his prostate started receiving shock after shock. “That’s what I like,” Justin told him in a husky voice. Brian clawed at the tiles while he bit his lower lip. His hole contracted over Justin’s cock continuously. “Fuck me!” “As you wish,” Justin told him as he pulled his cock almost all the way out and slammed back inside. “Fuck!” Brian hissed. He felt his legs trembling. Justin would pull out slowly and then slam into Brian. The brunet was shouting his pleasure and it was music to Justin’s ear. He put a hand on Brian’s hip and the other on the man’s shoulder. He bit Brian’s back and then licked the spot. “Take your cock,” Justin said. “Now.” Brian gasped and reached for his cock. He started to jerk off and in no time he was splashing his cum all over his hand and the wall. “Yes,” Justin hissed as he found nirvana. He was resting against Brian’s back and moved back only when Brian started straightening. “Are you taking Viagra?” Brian asked half joking. “Hey,” Justin said as his eye looked at Brian’s hand. “I want to taste your cum.” Brian smirked. “In your mouth,” Justin told him. Brian pushed Justin into the glass wall. He kissed the blond and then pushed one of his cum, coated fingers in the blond’s mouth. Justin sucked on the finger for a few seconds and then went back to kissing the brunet. “Shower, we need to shower,” Brian said pulling back when he felt Justin getting hard. Justin laughed and they showered. When they came out Justin dried off and walked to the kitchen. Brian followed him. Neither one of them were wearing clothes. “What are you doing?” Brian asked yawning. “I’m hungry,” Justin pointed out opening the fridge. Brian rolled his eyes. Justin took out the milk and put it on the counter. Brian watched him as Justin prepared two bowls of cheerios. He was temped to ask when Justin had brought it to his loft but he gave up. He would find new things each day and he wasn’t surprised at all, not anymore. “Here,” Justin said pushing Brian’s bowl to him. “Thanks,” Brian said. He found that he had been hungry as well. “What are you doing today?” Justin asked. “I’m going back to bed,” Brian answered. “How productive of you,” Justin teased. Brian rolled his eyes. “I met your ex-boss,” Justin said. “What an asshole.” “You did?” Brian asked. “When?” “At the art show,” he said. “Everyone asked about you. You should have gone, only if to see Vance’s face and gloat at him,” Justin told him. “He was telling me that he was there to buy some art for his company.” Brian nodded while he chewed. “I told him that I knew you,” Justin said. “He was like ‘oh, I didn’t know that’. He looked kind of pissed that you had met such a brilliant artist before he had.” Brian chuckled; knowing Vance it was nothing but the truth. “Glad you know your worth.” Justin smirked. “I can see why you started your own company,” the blond drawled. “What did he buy?” Brian asked curious. “He was trying to convince me to sell Chaos to him,” Justin laughed. Brian rolled his eyes. “That’s my painting.” “I know that,” Justin told him. After Justin had painted that particular piece he had shown it to Brian. The man fell in love with it instantly. Justin had given it to him even though Brian had fought against it saying that he could pay for it. “That’s why I didn’t sell it to him.” Brian looked at Justin and smiled. He enjoyed when they had time for the two of them and they would talk with each other regarding the things that happened to them. “What?” Justin asked. “Nothing,” Brian muttered. “So, what are you going to do for the day?” “Lay next to you,” Justin said. “Fuck you and kiss you. You see how productive I am.” Brian laughed. “You’re insane.” Justin stuck his tongue out at the man. They finished eating and then Justin did the dishes while Brian talked to him about a new campaign he was working on. When the kitchen was clean they went back to bed. They were moving lazily in the bed. Justin was on his back having a cigarette and Brian was wrapping the duvet around himself each time more. “We should be in Florida,” Brian said. Justin arched a brow. “What?” “Some place warm,” Brian told him. Justin laughed. “We can still leave.” “I’m too comfortable to start packing now,” Brian grunted. Justin finished his cigarette in silence. Then he said, “Do you want me to warm you up?” Brian arched a brow and smiled. “What do you have in mind?” Justin pulled the duvet away from Brian. “Hey, that wasn’t a good idea,” Brian protested. Justin grabbed Brian’s cock. He leaned down and kissed Brian’s neck. “God, I can’t get enough of you.” Brian sighed as his head rested on the pillow. Justin caressed Brian’s back with his other hand. He moved to grab a condom and put it close to them. He made sure he grabbed the lube too. Then instead of going back to where he was Justin laid behind Brian. His erection rubbed against Brian’s butt. “Jus,” Brian warned. “I want you so much,” Justin muttered. “I don’t,” Brian grunted but his cock was responding to Justin’s caresses. His plans consisted of fucking Justin and not the other way around. “Lying is bad,” Justin teased. Brian smirked and his mouth suddenly snapped open. No sound came out as Justin’s fingers pushed inside of him. “Does it hurt?” Justin asked. “A bit,” Brian panted. “I’ll be gentle,” Justin assured him as he stopped what he was doing to get a condom. “No,” Brian grunted. “Oh yes,” Justin told him as he assumed his position once he had donned the condom on. “You’re insatiable,” Brian told him. “Never enough,” Justin whispered to the brunet as he started pushing inside. Brian wished he had something persuasive to argue and say to Justin. But he really didn’t have the energy or the will. Justin stopped for a moment when he was imbedded in Brian. His hand caressed Brian’s shoulders and then kissed the skin there. His mouth moved up to kiss Brian’s neck and his hips started to move. “God, Justin!” Brian hissed. “Don’t you love it?” Justin asked. Brian felt his cock hardening even more and he didn’t think it was possible. He knew he was going to die if Justin fucked him once again. Ever since he woke up that’s all Justin had done to him and the day was only starting. The blond was gentle until they reached the end. Both of them screamed for the other as they experienced their orgasm. “Jus,” Brian said after a while. “What?” Justin asked. “Tomorrow is payback,” Brian told him. Justin laughed. “I think I’m going to let you rest,” Justin whispered still deep inside the brunet. Brian nodded absently as his eyes closed. His fingers interlaced with Justin and he didn’t regret losing all control to the blond. Tomorrow was another day he would show Justin then. *** Underneath your clothes There’s an endless story There’s the man I chose There’s my territory “I think it’s time to go,” Justin said as he stood behind Brian. Brian turned around. “And why is that?” “I want you to tie me to the bed and fuck me senseless,” Justin said and laughed. Before Brian he never had such thoughts, but he had to admit that no one fucked like Brian did. “I like what I’m hearing,” Brian told him. “I want you to rim me,” Justin told him in a husky voice. “Then drive your hard cock inside of me.” Brian grabbed his cock and rearranged himself in his pants. The blond could get him hard in mere seconds. “Okay,” he accepted. “Let’s get the fuck out of here.” “Justin,” Richard said. Brian turned around and glared. “What the fuck do you want?” Richard ignored Brian’s question and looked at the blond. “I was looking for you.” “You don’t say,” Justin told him. He was getting tired of the teen. “Yes,” Richard told him. “This is my friend Anthony.” Justin looked at the boy and smiled. Anthony was as tall as Brian with green eyes and dark skin. Justin wondered what they would look like naked and pressed together. The boy smiled at him and Justin’s cock jumped. “Do you want to come with us?” Richard asked. “We’re going to my house.” Brian wanted to kill the obnoxious little shit. “I have plans already,” Justin told him. “Come on,” Richard said smiling. “Anthony wants to learn a lot.” Justin’s lips turned into a grin. “Is he coming with us?” Anthony asked looking at Brian. “He’s kind of old for us don’t you think?” Richard asked. Justin laughed and put his hand on Richards face. “Why don’t you two go play around in the sand box. I’m staying with the old guy,” he winked at them and turned around. “Justin?” Richard asked not knowing why the blond was turning him down. Brian wrapped his arms around Justin’s waist and looked at Richard. “You boys got so much to learn.” “I wouldn’t mind learning,” Anthony said taking a step forward. “I think you’re hot.” “I think we could take him home,” Brian whispered in Justin’s ear. The blond nodded and then Brian left to get the car. Justin walked over to Anthony and kissed him on the lips. “Are you sure you want to come home with us?” Anthony nodded eagerly. “What?” Richard asked in shock. “I thought we were going to my house A.” “You can go to your house,” Justin told him. “Anthony is coming with us.” Anthony was psyched by the whole thing. He had never had sex and now he was with Brian Kinney and his boyfriend Justin Taylor. After tonight Anthony could die a happy man. “Get in,” Justin said when Brian drove the car towards them. Anthony got in and then Justin. The teen kept quiet and listened to Brian and Justin talk. He wished he could keep up to the conversation but he was too scared. He was also happy and excited about what he was going to do. “We’re here,” Brian said when they arrived. Anthony took a deep breath and tried to pretend like he was okay. They got out of the car and went into the building. Anthony looked around the loft once they were inside. “Do you want anything to drink?” Justin asked. Anthony shook his head. “This place looks great,” Anthony said. Justin smirked and walked over to him. “Why don’t you leave the small talk for later and take off your clothes now?” Anthony took a deep breath and nodded. “Okay.” Brian was already in the bedroom taking off his clothes. He was trying to decide what they were going to do first. At the top of his list was seeing the blond fucking Anthony. His cock twitched just thinking about it. “Impressive,” Justin said as he ran his hands up and down the teen’s body. “You work out.” “Yeah,” Anthony gasped out as Justin wrapped his fingers on his cock. Justin smiled and wrapped an arm around the kid’s waist and pulled him close for a kiss. Anthony moaned and wrapped his arms around the blond. Brian watched the contrast on the ivory and ebony skin. He walked over to them and separated them. “Now boys,” Brian said grinning. “Let’s get things started.” “We already had,” Justin pointed out. “Come on.” Anthony stared at Brian’s body and then at Justin. He didn’t know what to do. He followed Justin making sure that Brian was following them. Justin sat at the edge of the bed. “Come here.” Anthony stepped in front of the blond. Brian stood behind Anthony his hand gripping the man by the waist before he started to attack the dark skin boy. Justin grabbed Anthony’s hips and licked the left side. His tongue moved to the center where he buried his face in the teen’s pubic hairs. “Oh god,” Anthony gasped as Justin’s mouth enveloped his dick. His knees trembled and he was grateful that Brian was holding him. Justin deep-throated him and in no time he had Anthony coming into his mouth. He got up and kissed Brian before he moved to kiss Anthony. “Having fun?” Brian whispered in Anthony’s ear. Anthony’s body shook and he got hard again. “Ah, youth,” Justin said and chuckled. “Get in the bed.” Anthony obeyed the order. He lay with his back to the bed, trembling with the thought as to what would happen next. Justin went for the condom and lube. He handed Brian the lube. “Open him up.” Brian didn’t lose anytime. He coated his fingers and pushed one inside the kid. Justin busied himself with kissing, nibbling, licking, and biting the kid’s chest. He moved up and kissed Anthony. “Do you want me to fuck you?” Justin asked. Brian by then had added a third finger into the tight hole. His mouth was wrecking havoc on Anthony’s sac. “Yes,” Anthony hissed as he was drowned in pleasure. Justin moved in between the teen’s legs. His cock jerked as he watched Brian’s fingers disappearing into the hole. “Oh god!” Anthony moaned. He wanted more and more, it was so good. Justin put the condom on and leaned over to kiss the boy. Brian pulled his fingers out of the virgin hole and grabbed Justin’s cock. Justin moaned and moved closer when he realized Brian’s intentions. The brunet placed Justin’s hard cock at Anthony’s entrance. “Ah,” Anthony groaned. “Don’t worry,” Brian said. “The pain will go away.” Anthony gripped the sheets and shut his eyes closed. He was taking deep breaths and seriously doubting the pain would subside. After a while he felt himself relax and then Justin was pushing farther inside of him. They waited again until Anthony started feeling a hot current consuming him. “Tight,” Justin grunted as he pulled back and sunk back inside. Brian licked his lips and kneeled to the side of them. He grabbed his cock and started jerking off very slowly. He wanted to enjoy the sight before him. Justin looked at the brunet and gave him a lopped sided smile. Brian moved closer to Justin and kissed him. His hand moved to Justin’s back. He could feel the muscles spasm as the blond fucked the teen. “You’re so hot,” Brian drawled close to Justin’s ear. Justin grabbed Brian’s cock. “I want to see him sucking you.” Brian kissed Justin one more time before he moved closer to Anthony. He kissed the boy letting his tongue play with the teen. Anthony was in heaven as Justin fucked him and Brian kissed him. He wanted to open his eyes but he barely could. Brian pulled back and kneeled to the side of Anthony’s head. “Move your head this way,” he muttered as his hand pulled Anthony’s face to the side. “Suck me.” Anthony felt his cock jump with the thought. His hand moved up and took hold of Brian’s cock. He started by licking the pre cum off the shaft. Then he started sucking on Brian’s tip. “Yeah,” Brian growled. Justin watched for a while as the teen sucked on Brian. Then he leaned forward and stuck his tongue out, licking the base of Brian’s cock. Brian put his hand on the back on Justin’s neck. He pulled his cock out of Anthony’s mouth and only left the tip of his cock resting on the boy’s lips. “Kiss him,” Brian said in a husky voice. Justin kissed Anthony, the head on Brian’s cock in between their mouths. Brian threw his head back feeling the tongues swirling around the head of his cock. He was so close; he started jerking off himself again. “Suck him,” Justin instructed to Anthony. Brian went back to sinking his hard shaft inside the hot mouth. Justin never stopped moving his hips. He felt the boy’s hole squeezing him tight. He grabbed Anthony’s cock and started tugging at the teen’s cock. “Mmmm,” Anthony moaned with his mouth wrapped around Brian’s shaft. He felt his body floating with pleasure. He wanted more and more as Justin started to go faster. It was so good; he never thought it could be so good. He loved how Justin’s cock felt inside of him. He felt whole. His body stiffened as he felt his orgasm start. Justin pushed Brian back slightly. Brian pulled his cock out of Anthony’s mouth watched the boy orgasm. “Fuck,” Justin grunted as he followed the boy. His body fell on top of Anthony and they fought to regain their breath. When Justin finally pulled out he moved over to Brian. He pushed Brian on his back and started sucking the man. It didn’t take long to taste Brian’s seed in his mouth. Then he moved to kiss the brunet. “Wow,” Anthony whispered. “You guys are so amazing.” Brian turned his head to look at him. He grinned as he looked at Anthony. Justin pulled away to take off the condom. “Can I kiss you?” Anthony asked Brian. Brian pulled him closer and started kissing him. Anthony moaned into the kiss. He slowly straddled Brian’s hips. Justin moved closer and started kissing the boy’s neck. “Oh god,” Anthony gasped as he rutted against Brian. “Fuck me.” Justin smiled and reached for the condoms. His hand grabbed two as he got in the bed. The room smelled of nothing but sex and sweat. “I want you on your stomach,” Brian instructed the boy. Anthony didn’t lose any time. “Someone’s eager,” Justin said to no one in particular. “Get on your knees,” Brian told him. Anthony got on his hands and knees. “No,” Brian said pulling Anthony’s shoulders towards the bed. “Just your knees.” Justin grabbed a condom and stood behind Brian. Brian made sure that Anthony was ready for him. Then he pushed inside the man. He moaned with satisfaction when Justin prepared him. He was being assaulted with pleasure from both sides. His ass and his cook were both very happy at that moment. “Bri,” Justin grunted as he entered the brunet. His hands gripped Brian’s hips and he controlled the fuck. Anthony gripped the sheets and moaned each time that Brian rubbed around his prostate. He didn’t think he was going to make it. He opened his eyes briefly only to have them roll back in pleasure. His mouth had opened, saliva dripping onto the sheets as he tried to control himself. He wanted to cum already. He loved the way Brian was fucking him. “Mmm,” Brian growled when Justin started pounding into him. He gripped Anthony’s arms as he accelerated his pace. Anthony grabbed his cock and started masturbating. His hips moved hard, back into Brian. “Yes,” he hissed as he spilled his cum, triggering Brian’s. Justin kissed Brian’s back and licked him. He was starting to slow the pace when he felt Brian’s asshole grip him tightly and he lost it. He jabbed at the tightening hole and spilled his cum. The three of them crashed down. Justin made sure he had a hold on Brian’s waist as he moved to the side. Brian pulled out of the boy as his body was pulled away by Justin. The three of them lay there breathing hard and fast, trying to calm down. Justin nuzzled Brian’s neck. “That was so hot.” Brian nodded and grunted when Justin pulled out of him. Justin got rid of his condom and then took Brian’s off. “He’s dozing off,” Justin whispered. Brian sat up in the bed and moved away. He went to get a drink in the living room. “We killed him,” Justin said laughing as he watched Anthony sleeping. “Kids are not made like they used to be,” Brian joked from the living room. Justin got up from the bed as well. He stalked out of the room. He stretched his hands above his head. He took the drink that Brian had in his hand and took a sip before he handed it back to the brunet. Brian sat down on the sofa. “It’s still early.” Justin nodded and straddled the brunet. “We’ll have to entertain ourselves until he’s ready again.” Brian smirked and put his drink away. His arms wrapped around Justin’s body. They started kissing slowly and barely moving. By the time that they separated, searching for air, they had been wildly pushing and pulling against each other. Brian produced a condom from the sofa and smirked at the blond. “You’re so full of surprises,” Justin told him as he ripped the foil open with his mouth. “I’m prepared,” Brian simply said. Justin put the condom on the man. He tugged at Brian’s cock a few times as he kissed the taller man. “Hurry up,” Brian whispered. “This is all mine,” Justin muttered as he lowered himself on Brian’s cock. “All yours,” Brian agreed as his hands gripped Justin’s hips. Justin liked hearing that. “Touch your nipples,” Brian commanded. “I want to see you.” Justin started rubbing his nipples at first. Then he pinched them and hissed at the feeling. He opened his eyes a bit and watched Brian licking his lips. He smiled knowing that Brian liked what he was seeing. “I want to see you play with your cock,” Brian ordered. “Do it.” Justin gasped as his fingers rubbed against his piss hole. He brought the pre cum into Brian’s mouth. “Good boy,” Brian growled as he held on to Justin’s hips while the blond rode him. Anthony watched them from the bedroom as he fought sleep. As soon as he felt the bed dip a second time he opened his eyes. He sat on the bed and stared at the men in the living room. The kid had the biggest smile on his face. The hottest guys in the fucking world had fucked him and now he was watching them fuck. He couldn’t wait to go back to tell the rest of the guys. *** Ecstasy is all you need Living in the big machine Michael walked over to the bar where he found Justin. He frowned when he saw the man popping a pill into his mouth. “What are you doing?” Justin arched a brow. “I would tell you but I don’t really feel like it.” Michael frowned. “Was that an E?” “What if it was?” Justin asked. “You just came out of the hospital a few weeks ago,” Michael hissed. “You almost died.” “Shut the fuck up,” Justin hissed. “Jesus Christ! You’re so fucking annoying. You’re not my fucking mother! And what the fuck do you care?” “I don’t,” Michael assured him. “God, you’re such an asshole.” Justin sighed. “Hello, boys,” Brian drawled and bent down to kiss Justin’s temple. “He’s doing drugs,” Michael hissed. Brian looked at the blond and then at Michael. “Drop it.” “Yeah, Mikey,” Justin spat out. “Drop it.” “I’m just saying,” Michael said. “It’s not your fucking problem,” Brian drawled. “Let’s dance,” Justin said pulling Brian’s arm to make the brunet walk. Brian went with the blond. He stayed serious not sure what he wanted to say the blond. “What’s wrong?” Justin asked when he felt Brian’s stiff body dancing next to his. “You need to relax.” “I can’t,” Brian murmured. Justin sighed and knew exactly what was going on. He turned around and headed to the backroom. Brian was hot on his heels. He turned Justin around before the blond could reach his destination. “I’m not a kid,” Justin told him. “Then stop acting like one,” Brian hissed. Justin laughed, “Who the fuck do you think you’re to judge me?” Brian frowned, “A friend.” Justin licked his lips and moved closer to Brian. “Brian, I know what I’m doing. Here,” he said and pulled out the bag he had in his pocket. “Want one?” “Stop it,” Brian hissed as he grabbed the bag from Justin. “Fuck you,” Justin jeered. “Give it back.” “No,” Brian answered. “I’ll find more,” Justin dared. “I’m going to fucking carry you over my shoulder out of here if you keep this up,” Brian threatened him. “You’re not the boss of me,” Justin hissed. “What are you? Five!” Brian asked as he shook his head. “I mean it Justin, you can’t keep doing this. Next time you could really die.” Justin walked away from Brian and into the backroom. Brian went back to the bar. He asked for a Jack Daniels and downed it in a heartbeat. “What’s wrong, Brian?” Michael asked. “Nothing,” Brian assured him. Michael moved closer to the man. “You should leave him. He’s a fucking junkie.” Brian glared at his friend. “Fuck you, Michael.” “I’m just saying,” Michael drawled. “He’s not good for you.” “And who is?” Brian asked. “You deserve better than him,” Michael assured him. “I don’t want better than him,” Brian replied. Michael frowned. “What’s that supposed to mean?” Brian sighed. “Nothing,” he hissed. He turned around and walked to the backroom. He watched as Justin got sucked and he went deeper into the dark space. He found a corner and didn’t have to wait long before someone was on his knees sucking him off. By the time Brian came back Justin was at the bar drinking a beer with some guy. Brian walked towards them and saw Justin paying him some money and Justin smiling at what he received. “Hey,” Justin said pushing the drugs into his pockets. Brian stared at him. “I’m going home.” “I’ll stay a bit longer,” Justin said. “Do you want me to go to the loft?” Brian leaned forth. “What the fuck for Justin? You don’t need me,” the brunet told him and slammed the bag of Es that he had taken from the blond onto the bar. “If that is all you need then fuck you!” Brian hissed as he left Justin at the bar. Justin bit his lower lip a bit surprised at Brian’s outburst. He swallowed and grabbed the drugs. He was about to go back to the throbbing masses but stopped himself. He took a deep breath and decided that going after Brian was a better idea. He drove to Brian’s loft and reached the place as Brian was getting out of the Jeep. He let Brian go up and he stayed in the car. He wasn’t sure what he wanted to say to the man. He got out of the car and walked slowly to the building. “Justin?” Brian called from the bed when Justin opened the door to the loft. “Yeah, it’s me,” Justin assured him and closed the door. When he went to the bedroom Brian was lying with his back to him. He frowned and stripped slowly. He got in the bed and wanted to touch Brian so much. “Brian?” “What?” Brian asked, anger still flowing in his voice. Brian frowned when he felt Justin’s arms enveloping him. “I need you,” Justin whispered. “I need you more than anything.” Brian turned around and hugged the blond. He wasn’t going to give up and he wasn’t going to let Justin do so either. *** Oh, how quiet, quiet the world can be When it’s just you and little me Brian and Justin were sitting in the dinner talking and laughing when Ted, Emmett and Michael came inside. They sat across from the blond and the brunet. “Aren’t we all cozy,” Emmett said. Brian narrowed his eyes. “Shut the fuck up.” “Here we go,” Debbie said placing a salad in front of Brian and a burger with fries in front of Justin. She took out her pad and looked at her other boys. “What will it be?” “I already ate,” Michael told her. “I want some lemon bars,” Emmett said. “And a glass of milk.” “Apple pie and coffee,” Ted told her. “Where did you guys eat?” Debbie asked a bit curious. “I was showing them my excellent culinary skills,” Emmett informed her. “I’m stuffed,” Ted said. “It was good.” Debbie smiled. “That’s great. I’ll be right back. Justin laughed as Brian muttered something in his ear. Michael glared daggers as he watched them. He had to do something soon. He was tired of Brian and Justin’s sickening displays. Brian pulled Justin closer and started kissing the blond. “Are you guys going to Babylon?” Emmett asked looking at Brian and Justin. Ted was smiling amused. “Guys?” Emmett started chuckling. “Hey,” Michael said and kicked Brian under the table. “What the fuck?” Brian asked as he looked at his friend. “What’s your problem?” “I can help you with the list,” Justin joked. Michael glared at Justin. Then he looked at Brian. “We’re trying to talk to you two!” Michael said raising his voice. Justin looked up and his eyebrows arched. “What did you say?” “Jesus Christ,” Emmett said and laughed. “You two are oblivious to the rest of the world.” “What did you say?” Justin asked again wanting to know. “We were wondering if you wanted to go to Babylon,” Ted informed them. “We’re going to the baths,” Brian informed them. “Some other time,” Justin told the guys before he started eating. Brian followed suit. A few minutes later the guys’ orders arrived. They made small talk for a while. “I’m full,” Justin said pushing his plate away. “You’re going to get so fat someday,” Brian told him. “Yeah right,” Justin told him and laughed. “I get great exercise.” Brian snorted. Emmett laughed at the guys banter. He was happy for Brian and Justin. Then the small banter died and Michael put in his two cents. “So,” Michael drawled. “Now you’re following Brian like a sick puppy?” Emmett rolled his eyes. Justin glared at Brian. “I’m not you, Mikey.” “Justin one, Michael zero,” Ted muttered. “Shut up,” Emmett hushed Ted. “You don’t know shit,” Michael hissed. Justin got up. “I’m not going to stay hear listening to you,” he left as he grabbed his coat and scarf. Brian sighed and pulled out his wallet to pay for their food. “I guess I hit a soft spot,” Michael said triumphantly. “I don’t see why,” Brian said as he dropped the money on the table. He picked his coat. “I’m the one tagging along. He invited me after all.” Michael’s face scrunched up. Brian walked away. “I guess Brian, was the one that hit the soft spot,” Ted whispered to Emmett. Emmett elbowed his friend and tried not to smirk. “He’s an idiot you know,” Justin said as he stood outside waiting for Brian. “I really don’t want to talk about him,” Brian said before anything else was said. Justin nodded and dropped the half smoked cigarette on the ground. “Let’s go. I want to shower before we go to the baths.” Brian nodded as he threw his arm around the blond. “You have clothes at the loft.” “I guess,” Justin murmured as he tried to get closer to Brian. He was really cold. “Stop using me as your blanket,” Brian told him. Justin chuckled. He was happy when they got in the car. “I think its warm enough,” Brian complained after a while. “I don’t want to suffocate.” “I’m still cold,” Justin protested. They argued about the heater all the way to the loft. The two of them got out of the car and into the building very quickly. “Home, sweet home,” Brian muttered when they were inside. He took off his coat while Justin closed the door. “I hate winter,” Brian told him. “I love it,” Justin said smiling as he took of his coat. “What?” Brian asked. “I like it because it forces you to stay home in bed with someone making your own heat,” Justin said and then wiggled his eyebrows at the brunet. Brian laughed about at Justin’s remark. He tried to recall another time when he laughed as much but it was only with Justin. When he was with Michael, Brian usually laughed because he was high. Brian was inevitably making the jokes and laughing at them because Michael wouldn’t get half of them anyway. “I’ll take a shower and then we can go,” Justin told him. “Are you joining me?” “In a minute,” Brian told him when he saw the blinking light on his answering machine. Justin nodded and walked away to the bathroom. “Don’t take too long.” “Okay,” Brian said as he pressed the button to hear his messages. He only had three of them. “Brian, this is Lindsay,” she said. “I need to talk to you about something. Call me?” Brian erased the message when it was over. He would call Lindsay before they left the loft. “Brian, this is Claire...” Brian erased that one right away. He knew his sister would be asking for nothing else but more money. Justin was taking off his clothes when he looked inside the shower. He frowned not seeing his soap and decided to go ask Brian where he had put it. There was no way that Brian had used it all up already. “Mr. Kinney this is Doctor Johnson,” the man said. “I’m sorry to say this but we have found the source of your problem. We’re positive it’s cancer. I want you to come back to the clinic so we can start the procedure immediately. The faster we do this the better. We’ll have more possibilities to succeed. Brian erased the messaged but the words kept playing on his head over and over again. He couldn’t move or have any coherent thoughts. “Brian,” Justin said. Brian turned around startled. “What’s going on?” Justin asked behind Brian. Brian thought that the blond was still in the bathroom. He turned around, his back towards the smaller man. “Answer me,” Justin said but he had heard it. He had heard it all. “I have cancer,” Brian told him. Justin gasped at the harsh statement because now the words came from Brian’s mouth and not some answering machine. Now the words were out in the open in the cruel reality of light. He moved towards Brian and the brunet moved away. Justin followed him to the bedroom. “Leave me alone, Justin,” Brian said as he sat on the bed. “Are you going to die?” Justin asked. He didn’t know why but that was the first thing that popped into his head. It scared him shitless. Brian looked at Justin with wide eyes. “What?” Justin sat down too. “What kind of cancer is it?” “I don’t know,” Brian told him. “Where is it?” Justin asked. “I don’t know,” Brian said getting desperate. “They took the x-rays of my whole body. It could be fucking anywhere.” Justin licked his lips. “You’re going to go for treatment right.” Brian didn’t know what to do. “I guess I have to,” he was truly scared. Justin sat next to Brian thinking about what the brunet said. He didn’t want to ask any more questions because he was getting frustrating and very angry. All he thought about was the possibility of losing Brian and it terrified him. It couldn’t be true, Justin had finally found Brian. But fate was conspiring to take him away. Then he understood the anger that Brian had felt once when he almost took his own life and he felt so ashamed. Brian wanted Justin to say something and yet he was grateful that the smaller man kept quiet. Slowly he felt Justin’s hand on top of his and he turned his hand and their fingers interlaced together. He stared at the side of Justin’s face not sure what was going to happen next. As the silence reigned at the loft Brian and Justin held on to one another. Then suddenly the phone started ringing and after a while the cell phones too. Neither of them made a gesture to get up and get them. The rest of the world didn’t matter at that moment, it faded away and only the two of them remained.