“Oh, no you don’t,” Jack said grabbing Sheridan and pulling him up. “You really have this down to an art,” Justin smiled as he looked at Jack. “Brian was the same way you know that,” Jack said and frowned thinking he had said too much. How could he not remember that Justin didn’t remember a thing? He felt bad about what escaped his mouth. “It’s okay,” Justin said tired of everyone being so careful around him. “Don’t stop talking. I want to hear it. Tell me about it.” Jack grabbed the piece of plastic, which the boy had been licking, away from him before he put him down on the floor. “Did you guys buy something?” “Yeah, Brian bough a stereo,” Justin told him. “I thought Brian got rid of all the trash.” “Apparently he missed this one,” Jack informed the blond. “You were saying though, about Brian,” Justin said. “He used to be like Sheridan,” Jack told him. “Very avid.” Justin laughed. “That’s what you call it.” Jack laughed as well and looked towards the den where the kids were playing. Liam was still with Chris and he was grateful for that. He was getting too old to be chasing after the kids. “So, keep telling me about Brian,” Justin told him. “He was a great kid,” Jack smiled remembering it. “I should have never left them.” “It wasn’t your fault,” Justin told him. He knew some of the story, Brian had told him about it. “I should have visited them more,” Jack pointed out. “Well, you’re here now and Brian loves you very much,” Justin smiled at the man in front of him. He liked Brian’s father a lot. “That must be Brian,” Jack said as they heard the car outside. Minutes later the door opened and Brian came in. He went over to his father and put his arm around the man’s shoulder while he put the bag he brought with him on the coffee table which was in front of Justin. “How did they behave? Come on, tell me everything.” Jack grinned. “They were angels.” Brian snorted as he let go of his father and moved closer to the blond. “Hey, how was your day?” “Okay,” Justin smiled at him. He couldn’t look away from the brunet as thoughts of kissing him, touching him or feeling him invaded his stream of consciousness and his skin flushed suddenly. “What?” Brian asked acutely aware of Justin’s gaze. “Nothing,” Justin told him and rolled his lips inside his mouth. Brian put his hand on Justin’s belly. “How’s the little man?” “I’m feeling good so I guess he’s okay,” Justin told him and tried to calm his nerves as Brian rubbed his belly. Feeling the heat coming from the man was amazing and nerve wrecking. Justin was afraid that if he didn’t put some room between himself and the brunet he would be begging for Brian to kiss him soon. Either that or he would be the one attacking Brian’s mouth. “I should be going,” Jack told them rolling his eyes as he saw Brian and Justin flirting with one another. Their sexual heat was the same as it had always been for as long as he knew them. He had never stopped seeing the two of them so in love no matter what problems they were having. And now that Justin couldn’t remember a thing it still made no difference. “Debbie came over and cooked for us,” Justin informed him. “Are you hungry? I could heat it up.” “You stay there,” Brian replied. “I can do it myself. Are you joining me, Jack?” “No, no, thank you,” Jack told him. “Denise is waiting for me.” “Say hi to her,” Brian looked back at Justin. “Are you hungry?” Justin shook his head. He had eaten already and was still very happy and full. He could hear Brian moving around in the kitchen. He stayed on the couch reading a novel and from time to time staring towards the den to make sure that the kids were okay. He would sometimes stop completely and stare at his kids as he saw them interacting with one another. It was starting to feel right to be in the house with them. He loved his kids very much. He would do anything for them and he knew that as he watched them now. How they smiled with one another or would pout. Or would be fighting one instant and teaming up the next. “This is really good,” Brian said sitting next to Justin. “I brought you something.” “What?” Justin asked closing his book. Brian put his plate on the coffee table and grabbed the bag. He gave it to Justin before taking his plate again and he resumed eating. “What is this?” Justin asked while he opened the box. “Pastries.” “You’ll like them,” Brian assured him after having swallowed his food. Justin took one of the lemon bars. He started eating and smiled at Brian. “These are really good.” Brian nodded as he chewed his own food. “Of fuck yes,” Justin said. Brian laughed. “Take it easy.” “How did you know?” Justin asked. “This is greatness.” “You used to ask for that all the time when you were pregnant with Liam,” Brian informed him. Justin looked at Brian and grinned. He hated that Brian knew so much about him but sometimes it was a good thing. He looked at the brunet and he was determined to fix his life once again. He would make sure that everything went back to normal or something resembling normal; he would put in a lot more effort from his part because there wasn’t anything else he wanted to do but make the brunet happy. *** Justin looked around and felt so bored that he figured soon enough he would be going out of his mind from monotony. He looked at Debbie who was in the kitchen making dinner. The boys were with Jennifer and Craig. Jack and Denise had come to take the girls out. Justin knew that they were all going out of their way to help him and Brian. He was so happy to have such a caring family but now he was alone in the house with Debbie and she wasn’t letting him do much. “Dinner is going to be ready in a few minutes,” Debbie announced. “I made lasagna.” Justin felt his mouth water at the mere thought. “Jesus,” he muttered to himself, “I’m going to get so fat Just thinking about food.” “What was that, Sunshine?” Debbie asked as she walked towards him with a glass in her hand. “I made you lemonade.” “Thank you Debbie,” Justin told her and accepted the drink. Debbie nodded and they stared at each other. The moment felt awkward to both of them. Justin was aware that he had nothing to say because he didn’t know the woman. “I’m going to check on the food,” Debbie said. “Debbie,” Justin whispered trying to break the tension. “Why don’t you sit down with me for a little bit?” Debbie quickly moved and in an instant she was sitting next to the blond. Justin smiled at her seeing how the woman was so full of life. “Is everything okay, Sunshine?” Debbie asked. “Yeah,” Justin told her. “I wanted to talk to you for a while. I’m not sure if we talked a lot before.” “Oh, we did,” Debbie assured him. “How did we meet?” Justin asked. “Was it through, Brian?” “No,” Debbie smiled at the blond. “You came into the diner where I work. You asked for a job and I gave it to you. Then it turned out that you knew Brian.” “Oh okay,” Justin said and bit his lower lip. “I never got the chance to talk to you but...I’m sorry about what happen with your son.” Debbie could see that the blond was still the same caring being she had always known. She was so proud that the blond had handled everything so well. “You two were good friends. You were like the little brother he never had.” Justin smiled hearing that. He knew that his time with Michael was a mystery to him. It was like everyone else’s relationship with him but at least he could ask people about it and get some answers. “I could tell that it hurt Brian.” “Michael’s death hurt all of us,” Debbie grabbed Justin’s hand and squeezed. “But Brian and Michael were very close. They had known each other since they were fourteen.” Justin listened happy to learn more about Brian. “I always thought that Brian was nothing but trouble,” Debbie told him with a smile. “He looked like the bad kid of a movie. He was arrogant and harsh.” Justin frowned not wanting to think of Brian like that. “But it was all a farce, a wall he erected so he wouldn’t get hurt,” Debbie sighed. “His life as a kid wasn’t a good one.” “I know,” Justin told her. “He told me about it.” Debbie nodded and still didn’t let go of the blond’s hand. “With time he opened up but still there was a part of him always missing. I was so happy when he met you.” Justin bit his lower lip. It looked like there was so much in his life that he was missing that was vital for him and Brian, but he couldn’t get it back as much as he tried. “At first we didn’t know you guys were together,” Debbie laughed. “You see you came to live with me.” “Why?” Justin asked. “Your...” Debbie stopped herself. “What?” Justin asked. “Tell me, please.” “Well, you father kicked you out of the house because he found out that you were gay,” Debbie told him. Justin swallowed hard. He had talked to his father a few times and the man looked like he loved him. He couldn’t believe that he was wrong. “He did come around, Justin,” Debbie told him quickly. “At first it was a shock to him. A lot of awful things happened between you two but you guys managed to overcome it. You forgave him for all of his mistakes and he paid his dues, Sunshine.” Justin nodded slowly. It made sense that now his father was around. He guessed that no one was perfect and everyone was allowed to make mistakes. “So you stayed with us for a while,” Debbie said. “Then you were going to move away to New York and it broke mine and Vic’s heart.” Justin wasn’t sure why he would go New York or what he would do there. No one had ever told him about it. “Later on we found out that you were running away,” Debbie said. “I was?” Justin asked. “You thought that moving away with Daphne would be better than staying and telling Brian he was going to be a father. You didn’t want to cramp his style and make him do anything he didn’t want to,” Debbie told him. “So, what happened?” Justin asked. “Brian found out and he asked you to live with him,” Debbie said. Justin pouted a bit. It would never be clear to him if Brian truly loved him or if they had only come together because of Liam. Maybe if I had my memory back then I wouldn’t be having all these doubts, Justin thought to himself. “Get something straight,” Debbie said raising her voice seeing how Justin’s face twisted with worry. “Brian Kinney has never done anything he didn’t want to. That boy loves you with all his heart.” Justin stayed quiet and could see how passionate she felt about it. “You two are made for each other, Sunshine,” Debbie told him. “You’re so great, Deb,” Justin could see she cared about them. “Thanks honey,” Debbie hugged him. “Now I’m going to check on the food and you better eat.” Justin nodded and when Deb served him he ate; twice. They stayed talking about a lot of things and Justin was having fun being with Deb. A little later Brian came home and he was happy to see the brunet. “I should be going,” Debbie said. “I’m going to get my things.” “How was your time with her?” Brian asked. “It was okay but I feel like I’m trapped, Brian,” Justin told him. “I want to go outside and do stuff.” “I know but it’s the doctor’s orders,” Brian told him. “There was a time when I could barely walk while I was pregnant, so I know how you feel.” “But I can walk,” Justin pointed out. “You and everyone else won’t let me.” “It’s for your own good, Jus,” Brian told him. “And the baby.” Justin huffed and accepted that he was trapped. “What did you do entertain yourself?” Justin asked. “I masturbated a lot,” Brian said in a normal tone and with a straight face. He wasn’t kidding. Justin stared at Brian like he was nuts and then he started laughing. “Don’t get too excited there, Sunshine,” Brian told him. “I don’t want anything happening to you.” “Kiss me,” Justin instructed him. Brian moved closer to Justin and kissed the pink, pouty lips. He pulled back and smiled before he kissed the blond again. This time his mouth worked wonders on Justin’s boredom. In fact Justin wasn’t thinking of anything at all. “Easy the two of you,” Debbie told them when she came back with her things in hand. Brian and Justin pulled back and smiled. Debbie was so happy to see them like that. She left quickly to let the two men enjoy one another. *** Justin was watching cartoons with his kids. Not that any of them were paying much attention to the TV. They would sit down still for a few seconds or when music was playing and then they would be gone to find something else to do before they came back and repeated the pattern all over again. Justin was having the time of his life. The kids were all over him, even Liam. They weren’t crowding him or demanding his attention at all costs. They would just get on his lap and kiss him and hug him before they moved away. Justin was having fun holding them close and seeing how much love each little boy or girl could give. They were filled with so much unconditional love and it filled his heart with joy. “Stay here,” Justin said putting Illona on the floor as he got up to open the door to whoever was knocking. “Hey,” Chris said when Justin opened the door. “Hi,” Justin smiled. “Chris, right?” Chris nodded slowly. He had expected Molly to be rushing to the door. “Aren’t you supposed to be resting?” “What?” Justin asked frowning. “Uh, I thought Molly was supposed to be here with you,” Chris told him. “What happened?” “How do you know that?” Justin asked. “I asked,” Chris said. “I worry about you.” “You do?” Justin asked frowning. “We’re good friends,” Chris informed him with a little smile. “Best friends.” “I’m sorry I cannot remember you,” Justin said feeling so awful about it. “That’s okay,” Chris shrugged. “It’s not big deal. I’m here for you, Jus. Shit happens and you deal with it and try to move on.” Justin stared at Chris with a smile. “Are you really my best friend?” “Well yeah,” Chris told him. “Me and Daphne.” “Daphne,” Justin said the name sure he remembered someone had mentioned her before. “Oh god, I’m so sorry. Come on in.” Chris stepped inside and smiled seeing the mess that was in the living room. Littered across the floor was a bunch of toys from the kids. “Is everything okay, Jus? They’re not giving you any kind of trouble are they?” “They’re okay,” Justin assured him. “They’re behaving today.” “Good,” Chris said. “Do you want anything to drink?” Justin asked. “I know where it is, Jus. Please, sit down,” Chris told him. Justin went and sat down. He waited for a while and then Chris came with a glass of juice for each of them. “Thanks,” Justin told him. “Please don’t start pampering me. I’m sick of it.” Chris laughed. “Deal.” Justin bit his lower lip as he watched the man. He could tell that Chris felt very comfortable around him and he felt the same way. “Can I ask you something?” Justin asked. “What?” Chris asked and then took a sip of his drink. “How did we meet?” Justin asked him. Chris sighed and looked away before he looked at Justin again. “At school.” “That’s all you’re going to say?” Justin asked rolling his eyes. “You sound like it was a horrible experience meeting me.” “I don’t want you to stress out over anything that I could say,” Chris told him. “Tell me,” Justin swallowed. “Please. It’s so hard not knowing anyone and having all of you care so much for me makes it even worse. I feel so guilty not remember all of you or how much I care about all of you.” Chris nodded; he bit his lower lip and grinned. “I used to be a jock at school and I used to make your life a living hell.” Justin frowned not sure what had happened along the way to make them best friends. Starting with a sentence like that he was sure that miracles had occurred along the way. He drank a bit from his juice and then put the glass on the coffee table. “The truth was that I had a crush on you. I don’t know maybe I loved you once,” Chris smirked. “Then I hated you because I thought you had used me.” Justin frowned not sure he understood a thing Chris was telling him. “You see,” Chris sighed. “You and I were together.” “That doesn’t make sense Chris,” Justin told him. “I was with Brian. I thought...he was my first.” “He was,” Chris told him. Justin frowned not sure he got it all. Chris frowned. “Justin, how old do you think you are?” “I don’t know,” Justin told him. “Like twenty five.” Chris rolled his lips inside his mouth. “You were sixteen when you met Brian. Some time after that we were together and we had to go to the clinic because we had an accident.” Justin was trying to absorb everything Chris was telling him. “We tested negative but we discovered that you were pregnant. Daphne was with us,” Chris said. “I didn’t want to see you again but then I came around.” Justin nodded slowly. “Then I met Michael and I fell in love with him,” Chris took a deep breath. “And that is everything in a nutshell.” “How old am I?” Justin asked. “Twenty one?” “Twenty-two,” Chris told him. “Well, you’re going to be twenty-three in a few weeks.” “Oh,” Justin sighed. “How old is Brian?” Chris smirked. “Twenty-nine.” Justin smiled. “I didn’t know that. I’m happy to learn small bits like that.” Chris nodded his understanding at Justin’s predicament. “Wow, I was sixteen when I had Liam?” Justin asked Just to be sure. “No,” Chris told him. “You had turned seventeen. Then when Liam was two and a half you decided to have more babies.” Justin smiled wishing he could remember at least his kids. “Hi,” Keefe said as he grabbed Chris. Chris smiled and picked the boy giving him a kiss. The glass he was holding was pulled away by Justin so his friend could hold on to Keefe. “He likes you a lot,” Justin had observed how much Keefe liked Chris. “Yeah,” Chris said as he looked at the rest of the kids walking towards them. “I’m hungry,” Justin told him getting up. “Justin,” Chris protested. “Please,” Justin told him as he picked up his glass as well to take them to the kitchen. “I’ll just grab something to eat. I’m not stressing out and I’m calm.” “Okay, okay,” Chris relented. None of the kids said anything but slowly they all reached the kitchen on their own. Chris walked to the kitchen with Keefe in his arms. “I’m hungry Papa,” Liam told him pulling the fridge open. “Me too,” Justin told them. “Let’s see what we can find here.” *** Brian arrived at home to find Justin and the kids in a circle in the kitchen. They were eating dry cereal, fruit, doughnuts and god knows what else. “What is going on here?” “Da!” Sheridan got up and ran to his father. He put his arms up to be picked up. Brian grabbed the boy and kissed him on the cheek. “How is daddy’s boy?” Sheridan giggled happy that his father was there. “We were hungry,” Justin told him. “You’re not supposed to be out of bed,” Brian said. “Where is Molly?” “I told her to leave, Brian,” Justin said. “She was getting on my nerves.” “Oh,” Brian said frowning. “But I’m here,” Chris said coming to the kitchen with Fiona in his arms. “Why are you late?” Justin asked. “I was working on a campaign,” Brian told him. “Are you okay?” “Yes,” Justin told him sternly. He was starting to see the downside of being taken care of all the time. He felt useless sometimes. Fiona got up and walked over to Justin. She got on his lap and then off. “Papa,” she grabbed his nose and then sighed before she moved away. Justin watched and smiled. He was starting to get to know her better. She was getting hyper now and he could tell she was fighting sleep. She would reach for him every time she felt sleepy but then would get off trying to fight sleep. “Come here,” Justin grabbed Fiona. “I think it’s time they went to bed,” Brian said. “I’ll help you guys,” Chris told them. “The kids are going to be with my mother until tomorrow so I don’t have to rush back.” “Thank you,” Brian told him. Chris nodded and an hour an a half later they had settled everyone in. Justin was in the bedroom after Brian told him that he needed to rest. Justin wasn’t about to start a fight with the man so he did as he was told but it was getting to him. When Chris was ready to go he went to say goodbye to Justin and then Brian. He was happy that he had gotten to spend some time with his best friend. He had missed the blond’s company a lot. “Did you eat?” Justin asked when Brian came into the bedroom. “Yes,” Brian told him. “How was your day?” “Boring,” Justin told him. Brian rubbed Justin’s belly. He looked at the blond and smiled. “What?” “You like doing that,” Justin said. Brian stayed quiet and kept doing it. “You haven’t kissed me,” Justin told him suddenly. Brian grinned and moved to kiss the blond but instead of doing it on the lips he did it on the neck. Justin’s eyes closed immediately and a gasp escaped his lips. “Do you like that?” Brian asked close to the blond’s ear. “Yeah,” Justin answered with a husky voice. Brian watched him. He didn’t want to do anything to the blond that might end up causing more problems. “Brian,” Justin gasped. “Please.” Brian got closer and started kissing Justin. Then he felt Justin pulling his hand and he let him. He didn’t stop kissing the blond even though he was surprised when the blond directed his hand to his cock. Justin had never asked or hinted for more between them. “Fuck me,” Justin told him. “What?” Brian asked. “No.” “No?” Justin asked. “I don’t want to hurt you,” Brian told him. “I’m so hard, Brian,” Justin told him. Brian bit his lower lip and then undid Justin’s pants. He grabbed the blond’s cock and watched Justin’s eyes darken. “Oh god,” Justin moaned. Brian went back to kissing the blond while he jerked him. At some point he managed to undo his owns pants and jerk off as well. Justin opened his eyes briefly and pulled back from the kiss. “I want to touch you,” Justin whispered. Brian nodded, his hand never stopping his ministrations on the blond. Justin wrapped his hand around Brian’s cock and followed suit. Each thing that Brian did to him he would do to the brunet. It was driving him crazy. Brian heard Justin’s breathing and he knew the blond was close. “Oh fuck!” Justin moaned. “Oh god.” “Shh,” Brian whispered on Justin’s ear and kept on jerking Justin and then the blond’s cum coated his hand. “Fuck!” Justin hissed as he spilled all of his jizz. Brian did the same on Justin’s hands after having watched his husband. He had been so turned on and it had taken a lot from him not to jump Justin right then. “That was amazing,” Justin told him. Brian kissed him and nodded while he got up to clean the mess. When he came back Justin was asleep. He cleaned the blond and lay next to him for a few minutes. He couldn’t stop going over what they done over and over again. Then he realized that when he had ordered Justin to go to bed but the blond had come to their bed. He closed his eyes and held on to his blond. Brian hoped that this was a sign that his husband was returning to him.