I’m on fire when you’re near me I’m on fire when you speak I’m on fire burning at these mysteries. “Your friend is kind of crazy,” Brian said after they dropped Daphne at her apartment. “Yeah, I know,” Justin smiled. “But she’s always there when I need her.” “That’s good to hear,” Brian commented. Justin nodded absently. “What do you want to do?” Brian asked. “Let’s go back to the apartment,” Justin suggested. “I want to have my way with you.” Brian couldn’t wait to have Justin in his arms. For some reason, at the same time, their hands found each other and they interlaced their fingers. None of them said anything about it. They just didn’t want to accept that they were getting really involved with one another. “Are you hungry?” Brian asked when they got out of the car once they had arrived. “Not really,” Justin told him. “We could have stopped at the diner,” Brian said. “Come on,” Justin said to Brian. He wanted to be inside the loft fucking Brian. They rode the elevator in silence. Brian kept rubbing his thumb over Justin’s skin at the back of his neck. When they got out he reached for the key inside his pockets with his free hand. “Home, sweet home,” Justin said and pulled away from Brian. He yawned and stretched as he walked inside the loft. He started to take off his clothes knowing that Brian would follow. Brian closed the door and locked it. When he turned around, it was to find Justin taking off his clothes. “Eager are we?” “Don’t waste time, Bri,” Justin said as he headed towards the bedroom. Brian did follow the blond. When he got to the bedroom Justin helped him out of his clothes. “Are you okay now?” Justin asked caressing Brian’s arm. “Everything is okay.” Brian nodded. “Good,” Justin said and got on his toes to kiss Brian’s chin. “Now you can concentrate on what I am going to do to you.” Brian smirked. “What is that?” “Lay on the bed,” Justin told him. “Face down.” Brian sighed and did. Justin went to the bathroom and came with a tube of cream. He straddled Brian’s body and put some on his hands. Then he started to give Brian a massage. “Jesus fuck,” Brian muttered. “That feels fucking great.” “I know,” Justin told him. “And there is more.” “You want to kill me?” Brian joked. “It’s going to be a hell of a way to go,” Justin teased. Brian smiled and closed his eyes to enjoy Justin’s ministrations to his body. He was in cloud nine and then Justin told him to turn around. “Over already?” “It’s been forty five minutes,” Justin told him. Brian looked at the clock and sighed. “Wow, now what?” he got on his back and waited. Justin started to drop kisses all over Brian’s body. When he reached Brian’s cock he bypassed it. “I think you missed something,” Brian told him. Justin chucked and pushed one of Brian’s legs up and over his shoulder. Brian’s breath hitched as soon as Justin’s breath hit his crack. He could stop it all with one single word but the truth was that he didn’t want to. He wanted to feel Justin deep inside of him. “Now this is where you start to die of pleasure,” Justin said and licked Brian’s crack. Brian felt electricity coursing through his body. He moved his other leg to give Justin more space. “Whose is eager now?” Justin asked with amusement in his voice. “Shut up,” Brian said. “Get to work.” Justin grabbed Brian’s ass cheek and separated them. He licked Brian’s hole and then let his hot breath hit it. Brian was already squirming. He looked at Justin’s blond hair and watched as the hair moved back and forth. He felt himself turning hot all over. His ears, his cheeks, his nose, his arms, everything in his body as Justin pushed his tongue inside of him. Justin stopped and looked at Brian. “Good?” “Don’t stop,” Brian told him quickly. Justin bit his lower lip and went back to rimming Brian. Brian took a deep breath and tried to control himself. Justin plunged his tongue even farther inside of Brian and started to massage the brunet’s balls. “Ah,” Brian toes curled and he gripped the sheets. Justin moved his hand and started jerking Brian off in time with how he fucked Brian’s hole. Brian’s body arched from the bed and he exploded. His cum hit his chest and chin. Justin pulled back and looked at Brian. His cock was still hard and even more so watching Brian’s body, looking wantonly on the bed. He ran his hands over Brian’s sweaty skin until he was holding Brian by the neck. “More?” Brian opened his eyes and stared at Justin. “More,” he gasped. Justin licked his lips and reached for a condom. He kissed Brian as he pulled back and then ripped the condom open. “Let me,” Brian said and put it on Justin. Justin got comfortable in between Brian’s legs. Brian wrapped them around Justin’s waist. Then Justin started pushing inside. Brian threw his head back and closed his eyes. He pushed his hips up to give Justin more access. Justin’s eyes closed and he enjoyed as Brian enveloped him. He threw his head back as well and pushed his hips forward. “God,” Brian hissed. Justin opened his eyes and looked at Brian. He didn’t know what Brian had done to him but he knew he couldn’t turn away from him. He just knew. He started moving his hips faster and faster. Brian bit his lower lip to keep from screaming. “Yeah,” Justin groaned, he stopped and took a deep breath. Brian groaned and gripped Justin’s cock hard. He moved his hips up and down trying to make Justin move again. “You love it,” Justin whispered. “Fuck me,” Brian hissed. Justin started to move again but really slowly. He was enjoying every sensation that Brian produced in him. He felt like the room was burning up and he really didn’t care. He bent down and kissed the brunet. Brian grabbed Justin’s neck and held him close so he could kiss the blond over and over again. His body was on fire and he didn’t want it to stop. Their bodies were dripping with sweat as they moved slowly. Brian was so close and he wanted the blond to cum with him. “Come with me.” Justin kissed him. “I will.” Brian arched against Justin as he shot his cum between them. His chest was heaving trying to get air inside. Justin buried his nails on Brian’s skin as his orgasm took him over. It was always Brian’s tight space that pushed him over the edge. When the brunet gripped him like he wanted to swallow him whole he just lost all control. “Wow,” Brian whispered. Justin smiled and pulled out of Brian. He tied the condom and threw it on the floor. He straddled Brian’s body. He wanted to keep in contact with the brunet. “That’s one of our best fucks,” Brian told him. Justin chuckled. “I know that you love it when I fuck you.” “Shut up,” Brian told him. “You know the only reason I say this is good, is to not make you feel bad.” “Fuck you,” Justin laughed. He bent down and kissed him. “You do,” he muttered. “And I love fucking you.” Brian wrapped his arms around the blond and they just kissed for a long time. “Are you okay?” Brian asked when he felt Justin shaking. Justin laughed and nodded. He was feeling like he was walking on air. “Yeah.” Brian pulled Justin’s head back and stared inside the blue eyes. He was starting to tremble as well but he controlled it down. His skin was still burning as well as the tip of his fingers every time they brushed against Justin’s skin. Justin leaned forth once again and kissed Brian. He couldn’t stop. “You have an amazing mouth,” he smirked. “Fucking great.” Brian nodded in agreement. “The things it can do,” Brian teased and then started sucking on Justin’s neck. Justin swatted Brian on the chest. “Stop that or I will have my way with you once again.” “I don’t mind,” Brian said. Justin pushed Brian’s hair back with both of his hands. He stared at the man in wonder as to why he felt so much for the brunet. He didn’t have a clue that Brian was having similar thoughts. “I like your eyes,” Brian said. He couldn’t believe that had come out of his mouth but it was too late to take it back. Justin put their foreheads together. “I like yours,” he couldn’t stop thinking that they were acting like a couple of schoolboys. Brian caressed Justin’s skin just above his butt. He liked having Justin on top of him just holding him close. Justin rested his head on Brian’s shoulder a little bit anxious as to what had been happening lately. He felt himself growing closer to the brunet. He felt weaker around Brian; the brunet could do anything with him. “I should go,” Justin said. Brian frowned and nodded. He let go of Justin even thought he didn’t wanted. “I have work to do,” Justin explained as he reached for his clothes. “Of course,” Brian said. Justin got dressed quickly and said he would call Brian later. When Brian was alone in the bedroom it felt cold so it was definitely because of Justin that he was on fire. *** Oh, you could come home and you would know that All you want, is right here in this room Brian opened the door to the loft and found Justin walking around like he owned the place. He got inside and looked up. Then he started at the blond with a raised brow. “Hey,” Justin said putting some papers on the desk. “What are you doing here?” Brian asked. “Just waiting for you,” Justin told him as he walked to the kitchen. “I got out of work early. Are you going out?” Brian wanted to ask ‘what for’ but he kept quiet. He undid his tie and looked around. “How long have you been here?” “Just a few minutes,” Justin told him. “You do know you don’t live here,” Brian pointed out. “I know that, Brian,” Justin said. “Do you know that?” Brian rolled his eyes. “Don’t try to be funny.” “Did you have a hard day?” Justin asked walking towards Brian. Brian shook his head and scratched the back of his head. “How the fuck did you get in here?” “I have Michael’s key,” Justin said smirking. “How did you manage that one?” Brian asked angry. “Another blow job.” “I stole it,” Justin said standing really close to Brian. “I am so horny. I got on my new bike and rushed here so you could fuck me hard, daddy. I’ve been such a bad boy today,” Justin told him like a little kid. “You are so fucking dirty,” Brian’s voice was husky. He snaked an arm behind Justin and pulled the blond closer. “You like it,” Justin smiled. “So, you stole the key?” Brian asked. Justin nodded and licked his lips as his eyes concentrated on Brian’s neck. Brian’s cock got hard immediately. “It wants to come out and play,” Justin said pushing his own hard cock against Brian’s. Brian smirked and pushed Justin back until they hit the metal column. “I’m going to fuck you.” Justin grabbed Brian by the back of the head and pulled him closer. “Hard and fast.” Brian lifted Justin up and the blond wrapped his legs around him. Then he walked with Justin to the bedroom. He put the blond on the bed and then they both started taking their clothes off really fast. “Fuck me,” Justin demanded. “Hard.” Brian grabbed a condom and quickly put it on. He pushed Justin face down on the bed and grabbed the lube. “God!” Justin shut his eyes and bit his lower lip. Brian started at Justin’s hole as he slipped another finger and then another. He watched fascinated. “Fuck me!” Justin hissed. “Just fuck me.” Brian pulled his fingers away and pushed hard in one swift move. Justin’s body shook with the force. “God yes!” Brian grabbed Justin by the neck and started to fuck him hard and fast. He bent down and turned Justin’s face to look at him. Then he kissed him hard. Justin moaned on Brian’s mouth. Their sweat already mixed with each others. “Grip me,” Brian instructed. Justin did, as hard as he could. He opened his eyes and tried to control himself. Brian was rubbing against his prostate, again and again. “Yeah,” Brian whispered in a husky voice as he moved back and let Justin take control. “Fuck!” Justin moaned as he rocked hard back towards Brian. Brian gripped Justin’s hips and plunged into the willing hole. He leaned forth and started to suck and lick on Justin’s back. “God!” Justin yelled and gripped the sheets under him as he shot his cum. “Ah,” Brian threw his head back in pleasure as Justin’s hole tightened around him. He growled as he filled the condom to capacity. Brian and Justin both flopped on the bed gasping for air. “Jesus,” Justin said cleaning the sweat away from his face. Brian groaned as he pulled out of Justin. “I think I like sneaking around to find a way to see you,” Justin laughed. “It’s so worth it.” Brian smirked and nodded. “Did you really steal the key?” Brian asked turning on his back. “Yeah,” Justin said as he kissed Brian’s chest. Brian chuckled. “Good one,” he took off the condom and tied it up. He threw it to the side of the bed. “Thank you very much. I know,” Justin said getting all his weight on his right side elbow. “Are we going out?” Brian shook his head. All he wanted was within reach. “Okay,” Justin was happy with that answer. He just wanted to stay with Brian and spend time with the brunet. “I guess we can come up with a few things to entertain ourselves.” “I bet,” Brian told him, ready for the second round. *** And I got my defenses When it comes to your intentions for me. “Hello?” Brian said into his phone. “Hey you,” Justin’s voice was heard far away. “Where are you?” Brian asked. “Boston,” Justin told him. “I’m coming back this evening. So no worries, you will be able to stare at my bubble but all you want.” “Okay,” Brian didn’t even know that the blond had left but he was happy that he would see him soon. “I wanted to ask you something,” Justin told him. “Oh, yeah, what’s that?” Brian asked. “I have this thing at the office and I was wondering if you wanted to be my date,” Justin told him. “It’s on Friday night.” “You are shitting me, right?” Brian asked. “It’s not going to be a real date, Brian. Just in front of my boss and co-workers,” Justin explained. “I would do the same for you.” Brian sighed. “Okay, fine.” “That wasn’t so hard,” Justin told him. “I’ll even buy you dinner and then you can pay up by sucking me off.” Brian laughed. “You wish.” “I don’t have to,” Justin told him. “I’ll have you begging for my cock, you sexy thing.” Brian licked his lips. “Where are you exactly?” “Walking to the meeting room,” Justin said. “I’m here. Later stud.” Brian closed his phone and stared at Michael. “What?” “You should see yourself when you are talking with Justin,” Michael said. “What the hell is that supposed to mean?” Brian asked putting his cell phone away. “I think it’s cute,” Emmett said. “I don’t think you should be using that word to describe Brian and Justin,” Ted pointed out. “What the fuck are you all talking about?” Brian asked. “Justin and you,” Michael said. “So much for not being a couple.” “We are not,” Brian told him. “That smile was telling us otherwise,” Emmett sing sang. “You guys are so in love.” Brian glared at the man. “Accidents happen all the time. Be careful.” Emmett rolled his eyes. He knew Brian wouldn’t really harm him. “He’s just saying the truth,” Ted said. “We all can see it.” Brian shook his head. “You are just seeing things.” “It must be contagious then,” Debbie said coming with Emmett and Brian’s order. “I see it too.” “Do you get pleasure out of getting involved in other people’s conversation?” Brian asked getting angry. “Sure,” Debbie told him smiling. She pinched his cheek. “Our little Peter Pan is growing up.” “He’s in a relationship,” Emmett said very slowly and then smiled widely at Brian. “It’s not like that,” Brian told them. “It’s just…” “Fucking.” Everyone said before Brian could. Brian glared at them. “They are going out,” Ted said. “I heard it.” “Fuck you,” Brian sighed. “Just stay the fuck out of it. You don’t know shit.” “Well, at least it looks like it’s serious for Justin,” Emmett announced. Brian frowned and thought about it. “What are you talking about?” “He looks as happy as you do,” Emmett told him. Brian frowned at the thought. He didn’t want to be attached to the blond. He got up quickly. “Where the hell are you going?” Debbie asked looking surprised. “I have something to do,” Brian said. Michael got up as well and ran after them. “Brian, wait a minute.” “What do you want, Mikey?” Brian asked stopping to look at his friend. “Are you and Justin serious?” Michael asked. Brian shook his head. “It’s really just fucking.” “Well, maybe he does want more,” Michael told him. “That’s why everyone thinks you two are a couple. Because he looks like he is in a relationship.” “Justin is not like that,” Brian said. “He’s just having a good time like me.” “Then I guess it wouldn’t be a problem if you two just stopped seeing each other,” Michael said. “Maybe he’s lying to you and he thinks that slowly he would get you to be in a relationship.” Brian frowned. “I have to go.” “I’ll see you tonight at Babylon,” Michael shouted after him before going back to the diner. Brian was going crazy with all the thought he was having. He liked being with Justin but he wasn’t about to give anything more to the blond. They just fucked in occasion and that’s all it would ever be. First he went home and tried to do some work. But he couldn’t concentrate in anything that wasn’t Justin. That in turn remind him of the many times he had fucked Justin there. So he decided to take a shower and head out. First he went to Woody’s and stayed there a couple of hours. When he got bored he decided to go to Babylon. Everything was fine; he was having a good time with the guys when suddenly Justin appeared. “Hey,” Justin said when he came to the bar. “How was your flight?” Brian asked. “Great,” Justin told him. “Everything went according to plan. The meeting was great. We got the account.” Brian nodded. “I’m so happy, Sunshine. Let’s celebrate, go ahead order something. It’s on me.” “You are drunk,” Justin pointed out. Brian shrugged and asked for a beer. “What’s with you?” Justin asked. “Did something happen?” “Why are you inviting me to go with you?” Brian asked, his words slurring. “What?” Justin asked confused. “The thing at work,” Brian said. “Oh, because I’m sure you will look great in a tux,” Justin told him. “Is just a favor but you don’t really have to go if it’s going to do this to you.” Brian sighed and tried to see if Justin wanted more from him than a favor. “It’s not doing anything to me.” “Hey,” Justin said but not to Brian. He smiled at the guy that was passing by. “Want to dance?” The guy smiled and nodded. “I’ll see you later, Bri,” Justin told him and moved towards the guy. Brian still couldn’t figure Justin out. He wished he knew what the fuck was going on. His life didn’t use to be so complicated. “Have fun,” Brian called after Justin. “Oh, I will,” Justin shouted. “Later.” “Later,” Brian said and watched Justin walked away. He stared at his beer and tried to think what to make of Justin’s invitation. He was cautious in case Michael was right and Justin did wanted more. *** It’s hard to break away from loving When it feels so good. “Oh shit,” Justin said when he realized that he was on empty. “What?” Brian asked. “We ran out of gas,” Justin said. “What?” Brian asked taken aback. “What?” Justin looked at Brian and then the car just came to a stop. “Shit.” “Fuck,” Brian said. “What the fuck!” “Ah, great,” Justin said taking out his cell phone. “I have no signal.” Brian reached for his cell phone and checked it. “Fuck.” “Oh,” Justin muttered. “Where are we?” Brian asked. “We are just a few of miles away from my boss’s house. We are never going to make it if we walk,” Justin said. Brian ran his hand through his hair. “What now?” Justin got out of the car. “I just need to find a signal.” Brian got out of the car and followed the blond. “Oh there we go,” Justin said moving to the left side of the road and on. “Where the fuck are you going?” Brian asked. “Here it is,” Justin said and dialed the number. “Hello, it’s me, Justin.” “Hey,” Lucas said. “Where are you? Everyone is here.” “Can you pick me up?” Justin asked. “I’m in the middle of the road to Jackson’s house.” “No shit,” Lucas told him. “What the fuck happened?” “I ran out of gas,” Justin told him. “I’ll be…so don’t…okay?” Lucas told him. “What?” Justin asked. “You are breaking up.” “Be there,” Lucas told him again. Justin sighed and then he lost the signal. He looked back at Brian that had his arms crossed. “They are coming.” “This is so fucked up, Justin,” Brian told him. Justin rolled his eyes and walked back to the Jeep. Then he leaned against it. “How long?” Brian asked. “I don’t know,” Justin told him looking at his watch. “About twenty minutes.” Brian moved next to Justin and leaned against the car as well. “I’m having so much fun,” Justin told him as he stared at Brian who looked like a kid pouting. “Are you serious?” Brian asked. “We have no gas and we are in the middle of nowhere.” Justin laughed. “They are coming for us,” he assured him. “You look so cute pouting.” “I’m not pouting,” Brian was getting angry. “And they are probably going to let us starve here.” Justin laughed really hard. “You are such a fucking drama queen, Brian.” “I am being realistic,” Brian told him. “You are worst than Emmett,” Justin said. “Fuck you,” Brian hissed. Justin chuckled. “What the hell were you thinking?” Brian asked. “You had to put gas on the fucking Jeep to come this far.” “I wasn’t paying attention,” Justin shrugged. “They will be here in no time.” Brian shook his head. “Are you mad?” Justin asked. “What do you think?” Brian asked. “Don’t worry about it,” Justin said. “They’ll get us in a second and then you can drink all you want and it all will be in the past.” Brian looked at Justin and his look said everything. “I can suck you and make up for his inconvenience,” Justin said looking ahead. “Okay,” Brian told him. Justin looked at Brian and laughed. “Get in the car. I’m not getting on my knees and ruining my pants.” “And I’m the queen,” Brian smirked as he moved to get in the passenger side. Justin got inside the Jeep as well and watched as Brian took out a condom and some lube. He arched a brow and waited to see what Brian was going to do next. “Take off your pants and come here,” Brian said as he unzipped his pants and then pushed the seat back so he was lying back. Justin smirked and took of his pants and his underwear. He straddled Brian’s body and then kissed him. “Wait,” Brian said as he ripped the condom. He put it on and then put lube on his dick. “Aren’t you going to prepare me?” Justin asked. “No,” Brian told him. “This is what you get.” Justin chuckled and prepared himself to take Brian. He closed his eyes as the head of Brian’s cock pushed in. After Justin adjusted to Brian they started moving. It was slow at first and then they started moving faster. Brian kept watching as Justin moved with his eyes closed with nothing but reckless intent. “You are so horny all the time,” Brian told him. Justin opened his eyes and started to fall down on Brian hard. “Fuck,” Brian hissed. Soon enough Brian and Justin were both reaching their orgasm. “You are forgiven,” Brian teased with a goofy smile. Justin lifted up and Brian slipped out of him. He then got rid of the condom and grabbed some napkins from the glove compartment to clean himself and Brian. Brian just observed the whole thing. “What?” Justin asked as he went back to resting his body atop of Brian’s. “Nothing,” Brian said caressing Justin’s face. “That was really good,” Justin said. “Are you still having such a bad time?” Brian laughed. “Things are improving.” “Good to hear,” Justin whispered and kissed him on the forehead. “We smell like sex.” Brian nodded. Justin moved and grabbed a bag he kept on the backseat. He reached inside and pulled out some cologne. He gave some to Brian who shook his head because he didn’t want any. “You are always improvising aren’t you?” Brian asked. Justin laughed and nodded. “I guess I do.” “I like you so much,” Brian said at that moment not caring about anything else. “I do too,” Justin told him. Justin moved closer and they started kissing each other. Brian didn’t know what he was feeling but somehow he was choking with all of the emotions cursing through his body at that moment. Justin pulled back and they stared at each other, each of them showing the same fear and doubt. Justin felt his heart exploding and butterflies on his stomach. “Move away,” Brian told him scared out of his mind. He had never felt like that before. Justin straightened up and then heard the car approaching. “He is here.” Brian quickly zipped his pants while Justin put on his. Then they got out of the Jeep. Looking at each other they decided with just one look that they weren’t going to talk about whatever they have felt. *** And everything will be back to the way it was I wish that it was just that easy Justin was painting on his apartment when there was a knock on the door. He got up and went to answer it. “Hey.” “Hi,” Brian said and stepped inside. “What’s up?” Justin asked. “I’ve been thinking,” Brian said. “Uh,” Justin said. “Scary.” Brian didn’t say anything. He looked at the painting Justin was doing and then back at the blond. “We need to talk.” “What is it?” Justin asked. “About last night,” Brian told him. “What is it?” Justin asked. “Didn’t you have fun?” Brian frowned. After what had happened at the Jeep, they kept having way too much fun and every time he felt like his chest was going to explode. He and Justin were getting too close to each other and he wasn’t going to let it happen. Justin bit his lower lip. “I see,” Justin said knowing what Brian was talking about. “What?” Brian asked. “You are having way too much fun,” Justin said. He had felt his control slipping away but he hadn’t cared. “Maybe even falling for me.” “This is not me,” Brian told him. “I cannot give you want you want.” Justin smirked. “And what the fuck is that?” “I’m not boyfriend material,” Brian said. “Me neither,” Justin said. “Did I ask you to be?” Brian shook his head. “Things have changed,” Brian said. “They have not,” Justin protested. “I see you more than anyone in my life,” Brian pointed out. Justin sighed and walked over to the kitchen. “Do you want something to drink?” Brian shook his head. “What the hell do you want me to do about it, Brian?” Justin asked as he got a beer. “Things are getting complicated,” Brian said. “I don’t want to deal with this.” “Okay then,” Justin said. “No more fun for us.” “I think...I don’t know,” Brian frowned. “I think we shouldn’t see each other for a while.” “That sounds okay to me,” Justin told him. “But don’t bother to come back.” Brian looked at Justin surprised. “What?” Justin asked. “You think you can use me whenever you feel like it? Put me in a corner and I will wait for you to figure out what you want?” “It’s not that,” Brian said. “You said you don’t want a relationship.” “I don’t, Brian,” Justin told him. “But I am not your toy.” “This is not what I wanted,” Brian told him. “I was having a good time.” “Then what?” Justin asked moving closer to the brunet. “I don’t know what happen,” Brian explained. “One day you are just a fuck and the next I am knee deep in all your shit. I even know about all of your problems as if they were my own. I know so much about your fucking life and you know about mine.” Justin frowned. “Does that bother you that much? What the hell is wrong with it?” “We are supposed to be fuck buddies only,” Brian said. “I guess it got away from us,” Justin said sarcastically as he moved towards his painting. “I guess,” Brian told him. He was feeling his life getting out of control. “My life is complicated, Justin. I don’t want things to change. I like how everything was.” "Then just take your shitty life out of my fucked up one and never look back,” Justin told him calmly. “And it will all get back to the way it was.” Brian looked at the floor and nodded. He turned around and walked to the door. “It was fun, Bri,” Justin called out. Brian opened his mouth to say something but stopped himself. He walked out of Justin’s apartment and felt like turning back and going towards Justin instead. It didn’t matter what Justin said he knew his life wasn’t going to go back to what it was. Justin sat inside his apartment staring at his painting. He got up and pushed it all away against the floor. He took another sip of his beer and then walked to his bedroom to find a blunt so he could relax. Things weren’t going to be the same no matter what he told himself. *** She got a bottle of tequila A bottle of gin And if I bring a little music I could fit right in. Daphne opened the door and smiled at Justin. “Hey, what are you doing here at this hour?” “Can I come in?” Justin asked. “Sure,” Daphne stepped to the side. Justin walked to the living room and put on a CD. “Holy shit,” Daphne said. “What happened?” “Nothing,” Justin told her. “You only listen to that depressing kind of music when something is wrong,” Daphne pointed out. “Do you have anything to drink?” Justin asked as he sat down. Daphne sighed and went to get something for Justin. She came back with a bottle of Jack Daniels and two glasses. “Good stuff,” Justin told her after he had two drinks one after the other. “What happened to you?” Daphne asked. “You look like shit and you stink of alcohol.” “I guess I have been drinking,” Justin told her. “What’s new?” Daphne asked. “You know I don’t like it when you do all this shit.” “I know,” Justin told her and smiled at her. He reached for her and pulled her closer. “I love you, you know.” “I love you too, Justin,” Daphne told him and kissed him on the cheek. “Can you tell me what’s going on? Does it have to do with Brian?” “Him again,” Justin said and pulled away. “Fuck him.” “Oh, so it’s about him,” Daphne served herself a drink. “Tell me what happened?” “Nothing happened,” Justin sighed. “We went our separate ways.” “Really?” Daphne frowned. She really though that Brian and Justin were meant for each other. “Yeah,” Justin threw his head back against the sofa and stared at the ceiling. “What happened?” Daphne asked serving Justin another drink. “Brian said we were moving too fast,” Justin told her. “Or something along those lines.” “Oh,” Daphne whispered. “And he’s right, you know,” Justin shook his head. “I don’t know what the fuck happened. He just…snuck in.” “Where?” Daphne asked with a little smile. Justin looked at her and rolled his eyes. “Don’t even think about it.” “You said it,” Daphne pointed out. “I’m drunk,” Justin told her and smirked. He got up and reached inside his back pocket for his box of cigarette. “Ah,” he groaned as he sat back down. “How long ago did this happen?” Daphne asked. “Like a week ago,” Justin told her. “I should have seen it coming. We were always together and yet…there was some kind of space there, threatening to eat us.” “Did you guys talk?” Daphne asked. “As in ‘hi, let’s fuck?’” Justin asked. “Did you guys discuss what you wanted?” Daphne asked. “We weren’t in a relationship, Daphne,” Justin told her as he took a long drag of his cigarette. He looked at it and then at her. “Yes, you were,” Daphne told him. “Even if you didn’t want to accept it and that space you are talking about was your fears and they won.” “Thank you, oh psychologist of mine,” Justin mocked. “I’m just saying the truth,” Daphne told him. Justin grabbed the bottle of whisky away from her. “I don’t want to hear it.” Daphne sighed and got up. “I’m going to sleep. Don’t stay up too late.” Justin watched her go and then stared at the television that was shut down. He thought about getting up but he was too tired. He took a swig of the amber liquid and closed his eyes. “We were not in a relationship,” he muttered. He opened his eyes and looked around the empty space. He got up and walked over to the guest room. His head was pounding like crazy so he took another sip of the bottle. “I’m going to forget you. I have to,” he said to himself and sat down in the bed. In the darkness it was okay if he let go and cry. No one would see him; no one would know that he was missing Brian like crazy. He would just drink and hang out with Daphne like before and everything would be fine. “I can fit here, as I always did. I don’t need you,” he murmured as his eyes started to close. In the dark no one would know he was lying to himself either. *** I could be cold, I could be ruthless You know I could be just like you. Justin was having one hell of a headache when he entered the diner. He knew he shouldn’t have drunk so much. He took off his shades and put them on the collar of his shirt. “Sunshine,” Debbie said when she saw him. “How are you doing?” “Good,” Justin assured her. “Can I have a cup of coffee to go?” “Sure thing, honey,” Debbie said wondering why Justin look so bad. “Hey, Justin,” Emmett said waving from the booth. Justin walked over to them and smirked. “How is it going boys?” “I haven’t seen you in a long time,” Emmett said. He noticed Justin’s appearance but didn’t say a thing. He was sure that the blond was like that because of Brian. “He and Brian are not fucking anymore,” Michael hissed. Ted looked at Michael with a raise brow. “Yeah, I guess we are not,” Justin said. “I can still say hi to him, Michael,” Emmett said. “I told you he was going to leave you,” Michael smirked at Justin as he ignored Emmett. “Is it in you the need to always be mean?” Justin asked not caring one way or another if Michael answered him. “I’m just saying the truth,” Michael told him. “Sure you are,” Justin said. “Plus Brian and I weren’t together.” “Whatever,” Michael said. Justin looked at Michael. “And the funny thing is that you still would give anything to be me.” Emmett sent Ted a look that said ‘this is not going to end well’ and then went back to staring at Justin and Michael. “Yeah right,” Michael shook his head. “Why would I want to be you?” “Here is your coffee,” Debbie said. “Thanks, Deb,” Justin said taking the bag. Debbie looked around. “What’s going on?” “Nothing,” Michael told her. “We are just catching up,” Justin told her. Debbie nodded and walked away. She was sure something had happened but she would find later from Emmett. “I have to go,” Justin told them. “It was nice to see you Emmett.” “Sure thing honey,” Emmett said. “You too Ted,” Justin muttered. “Bye,” Ted said to the blond. Justin looked at Michael. “And as I was saying, you would like to be me because no matter what happened with me and Brian I still got a part of him that you only dream off…getting fuck senseless or vice versa.” “Fuck you,” Michael hissed. “No, no,” Justin said as he put on his shades. “We already try that, Mikey and it didn’t work. Maybe you have some kind of defect, no one wants you.” Michael turned red. Justin laughed and walked away from the dinner. “He’s such a fucking asshole,” Michael spat out. “He’s just like Brian,” Ted pointed out. “No, he’s not,” Michael quickly defended. Emmett rolled his eyes. “I have to go,” Michael said getting up and leaving quickly. “This is just...wow,” Ted said. “It’s like every love story,” Emmett said. “They find each other, they fight and they get back together.” “You think Brian and Justin are getting back together?” Ted asked. Emmett stabbed a piece of his doughnut with his fork and chew on it. He looked at Ted and nodded. “Sit and watch, honey.”