Brian sat down on the sofa and looked at Michael who had a big smile plastered on his face. “What’s with you?” Brian asked. “Chris is back.” Michael said. “Living with me.” Brian rolled his eyes but ended up smiling nonetheless. “I’m happy for you, Mikey.” Brian told him. “So.” Michael said sitting down. “So.” Brian whispered. “How are things with you and Justin?” Michael asked. Brian frowned. “Tell me.” Michael told him. “I don’t know what to tell you.” Brian told him. “They are going okay…except…” “Except what?” Michael asked raising a brow. “We are not fucking.” Brian told him. “He barely kisses me. Hell, he barely lets me kiss him.” Michael frowned. “What are you going to do?” Michael asked him. “I don’t know. I tried telling him that we should go to therapy, but he said no.” Brian told him. “I thought things were getting better.” Michael said. Brian sighed. “I thought they were too.” Brian admitted. “He is being great with the kids.” “You guys need to take some time off.” Michael said. “Yeah, right.” Brian told him. “How the fuck are we supposed to do that?” “We can help.” Michael told him. “We can take care of the kids.” “There're five of them, Mikey.” Brian pointed out. “So?” Michael asked. “There is Ma, and the girls, your father. Listen to me. They won’t mind.” Brian took a deep breath and let it out slowly while he thought about what Michael was telling him. He nodded and knew he needed to talk to Justin about it soon. *** “Can I talk to you?” Jack asked Justin. Justin frowned and nodded. They walked to the backyard in silence. Justin was wondering what the man could want. “What's the problem?” Justin asked. “I heard that Brian wanted to spend a couple of days with you.” Jack said. Justin nodded. “But you refused.” Jack told him. “We don’t have time for it.” Justin told him. “Of course you do.” Jack told him. “What are you talking about?” “We have kids to take care of.” Justin told him. Jack smirked and shook his head. “I can take care of them with Debbie’s help and everyone else that wants to help you guys.” Jack pointed out. “So what’s the excuse; what are you afraid of?” Justin glared at him. “I’m not scared of anything.” Justin spat out. “Look, my son loves you. You guys need to take a few days and talk about things.” Jack told him. “Trust me, you don’t want to end up like me.” “Like you?” Justin asked puzzled. “Loving someone and having to part because we couldn’t solve our problems.” Jack told him. “Are you talking about Joan?” Justin asked. Jack shook his head. “Someone before her.” Jack told him. “We thought that our problems would go away if we didn’t talk about them. That they would magically get fixed.” Justin frowned. “I regretted that for the rest of my life. Don’t let the same happen to you two.” Jack told him. Justin bit his lower lip. “I’ll…I’ll talk to Brian.” Justin muttered. Jack smiled and went inside. Justin stayed outside thinking about what was happening to Brian and him. *** Justin kissed Liam on the forehead. He looked at the sleeping boy for a few seconds before he pulled away. He went down the stairs where Debbie was with Sheridan. “Are you ready to go?” Brian asked. Justin nodded. “Okay, then. Have a nice time.” Vic told them. “Sure.” Justin whispered. “Bye, Deb, Vic.” Brian said. Debbie kissed Justin on the cheek and then moved to Brian. Justin walked to the door and then stopped and turned around. “Call us if anything happens.” Justin told her. “No problem.” Debbie told him. “Oh, and remember that Sheridan has a rash.” Justin said. Debbie rolled her eyes. “Are you leaving or not?” Vic asked. “Right.” Justin said. “Oh god. I don’t want to leave them.” “Jesus Christ, Justin.” Brian said. “It’s only for two days. We are coming back.” Justin took a deep breath and nodded. They left the house and Debbie and Vic looked at each other with a smirk certain that Justin would be back. They were surprised when the door opened and Brian came inside. “I forgot to say goodbye.” Brian said and went up the stairs. Brian came down after a while and kissed Sheridan. When he was gone, Debbie laughed. “He said goodbye to them before.” Debbie told Vic. Vic smirked. “I know.” Vic told her. *** “Here we are.” Brian said putting his bag on the floor. Justin came into the suite after him and then closed the door. He put his things down and sighed. “So.” Justin said. Brian put his hands on his hips and looked at the blond with a raised brow. “Why did we have to get away to talk?” Justin asked. “Come on, Justin.” Brian said. “This time is for you and me.” Justin nodded and walked with his things to the bedroom. Brian looked at the floor and frowned. He then followed Justin into the bedroom to find the blond sitting on the bed. “I don’t want to talk.” Justin whispered and looked up. Brian swallowed hard and nodded. He started to take off his clothes slowly and watched as Justin did the same. He moved closer to the blond and then kneeled in front of him. Justin caressed Brian’s face and then leaned forward to kiss him. Brian moaned and pulled Justin closer by the waist. Justin stopped kissing Brian and pulled back. He looked at Brian and frowned. He opened his mouth to say something but nothing was coming out. Brian pushed Justin on his back and got on top of him. He kissed Justin’s neck and then parted Justin’s legs. “Do you want to use a condom?” Justin asked. Brian stopped and stared at Justin. “Brian…I…” Justin frowned. “I don’t think we should have more kids.” Brian told him. Justin frowned and his lower lip trembled. “Justin…” Brian whispered. “No. Stop. Don’t say anything.” Justin told him. “We lost a kid.” Brian whispered. Justin looked at Brian and glared at him. “I told you not to keep on talking.” Justin said angrily. “Having another kid won’t erase what happened.” Brian told him. Justin’s eyes filled with tears. He looked at Brian and didn’t know what to say. “I’m so sorry.” Justin told him. Brian shook his head and hugged him. “It wasn’t your fault, baby. Get it through your head. It wasn’t. It wasn’t.” Brian said crying too. Justin hugged Brian tightly to him. He closed his eyes and just cried until no tears came out. Brian pulled back and caressed the blond’s face. He kissed him and smiled. They laid in bed together and soon enough fell asleep holding to one another. *** “Such a pretty boy.” Chris said smiling at Keefe. Michael watched him with a smile. “This is easy.” Chris said as he finished changing the diaper. “If you say so.” Michael told him. Chris nodded and kissed Keefe on the forehead. “Oh god.” Chris said letting the dirty pamper drop onto the floor. “It’s okay.” Michael told him as he got up and picked up the dirty diaper. “Michael!” Chris yelled. “What is it?” Michael asked taking a step back. Michael moved forward and picked up Keefe who had started to cry as Chris rubbed his belly. “Oh, god!” Chris hissed. “I think the baby is coming out.” “Jesus.” Michael whispered. “Don’t freak, Mike. Please.” Chris yelled. “I’m not.” Michael assured him. “Okay, good. Because I am!” Chris told him. “Don’t. Just breath, try to relax.” Michael said putting Keefe in his little crib. “I’m calling the hospital.” Michael said. “Can you get up?” Chris nodded. “Okay.” Michael said, going into their room. Michael grabbed Chris' bag and came back out to find the blond walking to the door. He couldn’t believe that Chris was ready to have their baby. He took Keefe and everything else they needed before they headed out to the car. He was going to take Chris to the hospital and keep calm. *** Jack looked at his girlfriend, Denise, who was holding Illona. He smiled at her when she looked at him. “She is so beautiful.” Denise told him. “Just like you are beautiful.” Jack told her. Denise blushed and then put the girl back on her stroller. She put her hands on her hips and turned around. “I like this place.” Denise told him. Jack smiled. “Are you taking it?” Denise asked him. Jack nodded. “It fits me.” Jack told her. “Good. It’s close to my house.” Denise told him smirking. “You can visit me a lot.” Jack laughed and nodded. “When your kids aren’t there.” Jack told her. “I don’t think they like me very much.” Denise smiled and shook her head. “They are just over-protective of me.” Denise assured him. “When am I going to meet your kid?” “Soon. He’s just going through a rough time now. I want everything to be okay before he meets you.” Jack explained. “Okay.” Denise told him. Jack dug in his pocket for the cell phone that Brian had given him. He opened it and answered. “He is what?” Jack asked surprised. “He’s having the baby.” Michael yelled. “Okay, okay.” Jack said. “Take it easy. We are on our way.” “I need to call the guys. Bye.” Michael said and hung up. “So, would you settle for meeting the rest of the family?” Jack asked smiling. Denise nodded and tried to calm down. She was nervous about meeting Jack’s family. She really liked the man and wanted everyone to like her. *** Brian opened his eyes and sighed. He looked to his side and found Justin staring at him. “How long have you been up?” Brian asked. Justin shrugged. “Few seconds, maybe.” Justin told him. Brian moved closer and kissed the blond. He kissed him for a while and then moved to Justin’s neck. Justin moaned and moved closer to the brunet. “Brian.” Justin gasped. “Can I make love to you?” Brian asked. Justin nodded and got out of bed. He came back with the lube and some condoms. He got in the bed again and Brian got on top of him. They kissed slowly at first. Brian kept on caressing Justin’s everywhere. He was rubbing his erection against Justin’s own. He moved down and kissed Justin’s neck and then his shoulders. He looked up at the blond who had his eyes close and was slightly trembling. Brian licked Justin’s chest and sucked Justin’s nipples. “I love you.” Justin muttered. Brian smiled and took a deep breath letting the words wash all over his being. He kissed Justin stomach and then pushed his tongue into Justin’s navel. Justin moaned and opened his eyes to look at Brian. He caressed Brian’s face and the brunet looked up. They smiled at each other and interlaced their left hands together. Brian moved lower and inhaled Justin’s smell. He licked the tip of Justin’s leaking cock and coated his lips with Justin’s pre cum before he moved up to kiss Justin. Justin moaned as they kissed and rubbed against Brian’s own hard penis. He pulled back and stared at Brian as he moved his hand to grab the brunet’s dick. “I wish…” Justin murmured as he spread Brian’s pre cum over his cock to use a lubricant “I know.” Brian told him and reached for the condom. Brian put the condom on and grabbed the lube. Justin put his legs on top of Brian’s shoulders and waited. He closed his eyes when he felt Brian’s fingers opening him up. He moaned and pushed back towards his boyfriend. He had missed having the brunet inside of him and he couldn’t wait. “Please.” Justin murmured. Brian licked his lisp and pulled his fingers away. He positioned his cock at Justin’s entrance and pushed slowly. They held on to each other as Brian slowly buried himself deep inside the blond. “I missed you.” Brian whispered. “Oh god.” Justin gasped as Brian stared to move in and out of him. They tried to keep a slow pace but found each other moving frantically against one another. Soon enough, Justin was shooting his load and so did Brian. They were both breathing hard and not moving. Brian pulled out of Justin and the blond got up quickly and went to the bathroom. Brian got rid of the condom and stayed in the bed, a million thoughts running through his mind. When Justin came back, he sat on the bed with his back to Brian. He didn’t know what he was feeling, but his chest was tight. Brian was biting his lower lip not sure what would happen next. He was so scared of losing Justin. “I think we need to find help, Justin.” Brian told him. “We are okay, Brian.” Justin told him. “No, we're not.” Brian told him. Justin sighed. “This was a bad idea.” Justin told him. “I love you, Justin. I am trying to do what I can so we won’t end up apart. I can’t live without you.” Brian told him as he stared at Justin’s back. Justin turned around and crawled in the bed. He put his head on Brian’s chest and closed his eyes, wishing everything was okay. “Let’s try therapy.” Brian told him. “I already told you how I felt about that.” Justin said. Brian took a deep breath as he brought his arms around Justin. “Then, what the fuck are we going to do?” Brian asked. Justin looked up into Brian’s eyes. He caressed the brunet’s face. “One day at a time. We tell each other what we are feeling…no matter what it is.” Justin said. “Okay.” Brian told him. “Is there anything you want to tell me right now?” Justin asked. Brian sighed. “No. Not really.” Brian told him. “Is there anything you want to say?” Justin bit his lower lip. “Justin.” Brian whispered. “I think I hated you for not wanting to have more kids with me.” Justin told him. Brian froze not sure what to say or do. Justin closed his eyes and started crying. “Justin.” Brian whispered. “I’m sorry.” Justin shook his head. “I think you are right.” Justin murmured. “It's just…I wanted to have that baby.” Brian swallowed as he ran his fingers through Justin’s hair. “Maybe we can later. When everything is okay.” Brian told him. “We’ll talk about it.” Justin nodded and held on tighter to Brian. He didn’t feel like his chest was going to explode at any minute, anymore.
A million thanks to Sidney. Without her I would still be stuck and running away from angry fans. Thanks to my beta CuJo.