Brian opened the loft door and stood there in shock. His whole body was trembling and he wasn’t sure that blinking was such a good idea. Justin could disappear from his sight if he did. “Can I come in?” Justin asked. Brian moved to the side and nodded. “Are you alone?” Justin asked. “Yeah,” “I need to talk to you.” Justin said. Brian just walked to the kitchen where the island was filled with all kinds of alcohol. Justin could tell that Brian wasn’t drunk but he wasn’t that sober either. “What is it?” Brian asked. “I was thinking about what you said to me.” Justin said. “Something happened that day.” “What? You started jumping up and down ecstatic that I was out of your life?” Brian snarled. Justin smiled sadly. “I thought I was going to but when you walked away from me I just felt sick. I felt empty. I hated myself for pushing you away.” Justin said. “Then you started to come around and just sit there and you wouldn’t say anything. At first I thought you were nuts and then you just stopped coming. Part of me hated you for listening to me. I actually missed you.” Brian looked up and frowned. “Stop playing with me, Justin. You can’t keep doing this. It’s fucking driving me crazy.” “I know Brian.” Justin said and bit his lower lip. “You were right.” “I was?” Brian asked surprised. “Yeah, I was afraid. Shit, I’m fucking terrified.” Justin walked closer to Brian. “You are not the first guy that I have ever wanted to be with. There was James and then Chris but I always was way too scared to do anything about it. Then you came alone and you turned my world upside down. You are the most persistent person I have ever met.” Brian smirked but kept quiet. “That’s not even the point,” Justin said. “I could have kept on ignoring you forever.” “No shit,” Brian said and smirked. Justin smiled. “It’s just that you have been the first guy to call me on my shit, the only one to tell me out loud the truth about myself. And that fucking scares me. I feel like you know me so fucking well. I think I’m falling for you, Brian.” Justin declared and a tear fell down. “Justin,” Brian said putting the bottle down and walking towards Justin. “I am scared that my parents are going to hate me and that after all you’ll just break my heart.” Brian hugged Justin to him when Justin started crying more strongly. He just kept rubbing circles around Justin’s back. “Shh, I’m not going to. I can’t. I don’t want to lose you.” “You don’t know that, Brian.” “Oh believe me. I do. I would give my life before hurting you. You are the first man that I have ever lo…felt like this for. Yeah, it’s true what Michael said. I am an asshole. I do fuck everything that moves or at least used to. I don’t care about what anyone has to say. I’m always brutally honest and I won't lie for anyone.” Brian said. “I always do what I want. I don’t take shit from anyone. I’ll do anything to get what I want…blah, blah, blah.” Justin cringed at what Brian was saying. He looked away from Brian and took a step back. “Justin, look at me.” Justin looked up. “It doesn’t stop me from being human, for acting like a fool when I am around you. You make me want to be a whole new man. I wan to be better just to be the kind of man you need. Hell, Justin, these past couple of weeks I have done things that I would have never in my entire life dreamed of doing, but for you, baby, God, for you I would do anything.” “Even hide our relationship?” Justin asked. Brian took a deep breath and nodded. “Justin, as long as I have you, nothing else matters.” Justin smiled and hugged Brian to him. “Wow, we must look like a couple of fucking lesbians.” Brian said letting a tear fall. “Shut the fuck up. You are ruining the moment.” Brian laughed. He had Justin back in his arms. Everything was perfect. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Brian smiled as Emmett came into the diner with a guy holding his hand. They sat in front of Brian and Justin and the guy put an arm around Emmett’s shoulder. “Guys, this is William, Billy these are my friends, Brian and Justin.” Emmett said. “It’s nice to meet you.” William said. Brian nodded. (“I swear to god he is smiling.”) Brian looked back to see if he could see Michael. He had heard him. Brian closed his eyes and wondered if he was going crazy. He had gone to the doctor but apparently he was one hundred percent fine. Brian didn’t know what the hell was going on inside his head. “Brian, are you okay?” Justin asked. “Yeah, I’m the happiest man in the world.” Brian told him kissing him. Justin smiled. “So have you guys done it?” Emmett asked. Justin started to turn red and Brian just burst out laughing. “Yeah, you should have seen him. Justin was frightened of my nine inch dick.” Brian said. Justin’s mouth opened wide and he turned even redder than he was. “I can’t believe you said that and in front of them no less.” Justin yelled. Brian laughed. “Don’t be such a prude.” Emmett said smirking. “I am not a prude.” Justin said defensively. “I’m just…” “It’s okay sunshine,” Brian said kissing him hard. “God, I could eat you up.” “So what are you guys doing today?” Emmett asked. “We have a date.” Justin said. “Brian is dead set on these things.” Brian rolled his eyes. “It’s a very important part of a healthy relationship.” Brian said. Justin rolled his eyes. “You now, when you started going after Justin I thought you were just trying to scare the shit out of us. Then when you were with him, I had the shit scared out of me, believe me. I thought then that the world was actually going to end. But I saw you Brian. I saw the real you and I liked it.” Brian smiled and nodded. "Guess the Brian Kinney we all knew and loved is gone for good." William said. “He still can be an asshole, sometimes.” Justin said. They laughed while Brian shook his head. "So where did you two meet?" Brian asked. "Woodies," William said. "I look across the room and there was Emmett. The most gorgeous man that I have ever seen. Do you know what I mean?" Brian looked at Justin and smiled. He knew exactly what William meant. “What is he doing here?” Michael asked. “Don’t you know other fucking questions?” Brian asked. “I just thought you two broke up.” Michael said sitting down. “We got back together.” Brian stated. “Brian, he is just playing with you.” Michael insisted. “He is using you like a puppet. He wants you and then he changes his mind and then oh no wait he wants you again.” Justin started to turn red and didn’t know where to look. “Fuck you, Michael.” Brian shouted. The whole diner felt silent. After a couple of seconds Michael got up. “I have to go. There is something I need to do.” Michael said. “Wow,” Emmett said. “I’m sorry, Brian.” Justin said. “It’s okay.” “He is you best friend, Brian. I didn’t want to cause any problems for you.” Brian shrugged. “I can cope with Michael not being there.” Brian said. “But there are things that I can’t live without.” Justin smiled and kissed him. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Brian walked to Justin’s apartment and knocked three times. Justin came out looking very gloomy. “Brian,” “Justin, what’s wrong?” Brian asked. “Baby, have you been crying?” “They found out,” Justin sobbed. “Someone told them.” Brian pulled Justin into a hug. “They hate me Brian. They say I am going to hell if I don’t stop this.” Justin said crying. “Fuck them, it’s not true and even if it was I would still be with you.” Brian smirked and Justin smiled a little and buried his face in Brian’s chest. “What’s going on?” Mrs. Gillard asked from inside the house. Brian frowned and walked in even though Justin was trying to push him out. “Is that him?” Justin’s mom asked. Brian just stared at Justin’s parents. Justin bit his lower lip and held on to Brian’s hand. Brian felt a chill in the back of his spine. “We want you to stop seeing our son.” Mr. Gillard said. “Have you gone fucking insane?” Brian asked. “Do you know all the shit I went through just to get one date? Let along everything else. I am not going anywhere.” “Justin, honey he is using you.” Victoria said. “No he is not mom.” Justin said. “A man your age shouldn’t have anything to do with an eighteen year old boy.” Mathew said. “What, you know he comes from a family with money and you want a piece of it?” “That’s not true. I don’t need any fucking money from you or him. I am with Justin because I love him.” Brian growled. Brian started to feel dizzy. (“I still have hope left he is going to come around.”) “Mom, dad, Brian is a partner at one of Pittsburgh’s best advertising agencies.” Justin said. "He doesn't need money. I am not a stupid kid. I know what I am doing." Mathew and Victoria looked at each other. (“I think he is too.”) Brian looked around and wondered what the fuck was going on. He could have sworn he had heard Ben’s voice. “Brian, are you okay?” Justin asked. Brian looked at Justin while Justin returned the look with a smile. Brian was seeing everything a little blurry. He smiled at Justin and caressed his face. “I love you.” Brian said. Justin smiled brightly but everything went black for Brian.