“I’m showing.”  Justin said smiling.  “If I was to wear tight clothes, people could actually see my belly.”

Dr. Johnson looked up at Justin and smiled.

“Yes, you are.  I see you are happy about it.”

Justin’s smile got bigger and nodded.

“That means the baby is growing.  That’s good, right?”  Justin asked.

The doctor nodded and started writing on his chart.

“When do I have to come back?”  Justin asked.

“Monday.”  Dr. Johnson told him.

“Okay.  Uh, I’m feeling a lot of pain in my lower back.  Is that normal?”

“Yes, it is.  You are still a young man and your body is still growing and changing.  You add to that you are a man and almost five months pregnant.  You weren’t supposed to get pregnant at this age…but it happened.  It’s going to get hard from now on, Justin.  You have to be careful.”

Justin nodded.  Justin watched as the doctor listed a few things he should be taking.

“Doctor, can I ask you something?”  Justin asked.

“What is it?”  The doctor asked.

“How are they going to get the baby out?”  Justin asked.

“C-section.”

“Is it going to hurt?”  Justin asked worried.

“We’ll use a spinal block.  It will numb you from the waist down but you will be awake.”  Dr. Johnson told him.

Justin smiled and nodded.

“Here you go.  You have to take these meds and take care of yourself.  You are in good health, Justin.  Let’s keep it that way.”  

Justin nodded and rubbed his belly.  He wished Brian was there with him.

“I’m going to need a transcript of my medical records in less than a week.  I am moving to New York.”  Justin told him.

Dr. Johnson nodded.

“Just make sure it’s by car or bus.  I don’t recommend that you travel by airplane.”  

Justin nodded as he tried to smile, thinking about the whole trip.  He really didn’t want to go.

***

Debbie smiled at Michael and pinched him on the cheek.  She was a little calmer now that she knew that Michael had offered to go with Justin to New York.  She had almost tied Justin to the bed when she learned that Justin was going to be taking the bus alone.  She thought it wasn’t safe. 

“Do you want more food?”  Vic asked as he looked at Justin.

Justin smiled but shook his head.

“I want some lemon bars though.”  Justin said.

“I’ll go get them.”  Vic said.

“The bottomless pit.”  Brian said dryly.

“Leave him alone.”  Melanie told him.  “He’s not like you.  Being skinny to look like he has some kind of disease is not his thing.”

“Mel.”  Lindsay murmured as she opened her eyes wide to tell her to back off.

Brian ignored her and got up from the table.  He was going to kill her if he didn’t put some distance between them.  All night she had been on his case and he was getting tired of it.  Then there was Justin.  He was so pissed at the blond for moving away.  He was never going to let anyone come close to him again.  He didn’t like the horrible feeling he had now.  

“Do you want some juice or milk?”  Vic asked Justin as he put the lemon bars in front of the blond.

“Milk.”  Justin told him.  “Thank you, Vic.”

Vic nodded and went to get it.

They stayed a while longer just making small talk.  Debbie was happy to see them together and sharing time at her house.  Vic kept asking Justin if he was okay and doing as much as he could for the blond.  Brian was getting more pissed as each minute passed.  He wanted Justin to stay and he wanted to say something, but he couldn’t.

“It’s getting to be late.”  Michael said, looking at his watch.

Ted looked at his watch and nodded.

“I’d better be going.”  Ted said.  “Do you want a ride, Emmett?”

“Sure, Teddy.”  Emmett told him.

“What about you, Michael?”  Ted asked, grabbing his coat.

“Nah, I’ll go with Brian.”

“Then you will be walking because I’m going to Babylon.”  Brian said as he took a sip of his wine.

Justin held back the scream he wanted to let out.  He looked towards Brian and tried to make himself believe that he wasn’t jealous and that he didn’t wanted to go with Brian and dance with the man.  He missed being near Brian so much but he had stopped being around Brian about a month ago when his belly had started to show more.

“Some friend you got there.”  Melanie said.  “He’d let you die if there was someone offering to suck his cock.”

“Fuck you.  You fucking bitch.  You don’t know shit about me.”  Brian roared.

Everyone stopped what they were doing to look at Brian.

“Brian, relax.”  Lindsay said.  “She didn’t mean anything by it.”

“One day we are going to have to construct a boxing ring and let those two have a go at it.”  Vic commented.

Debbie smiled.

“I have my money on Mel.”  Ted said.

Lindsay laughed.

“I’m going to bed.”  Justin said, getting up.

“Are you feeling okay, honey?”  Debbie asked him.

Justin smiled and nodded.

“I’m just tired.”  

“Then you go rest.”  Vic said.

Justin smiled and nodded.  He wondered why Vic was so attentive towards him.  He shrugged it off, thinking that it was because he was leaving soon.

“Okay.  You have a good night.”  Debbie told him kissing him and hugging him.

“Goodnight, guys.”  Justin said as he walked to the stairs.

Justin stopped in the middle of the stairs and looked one more time at the people who were there saying goodbye to each other.  He surely was going to miss them, especially Brian.  He looked at the man and gave him a smile when Brian turned to look at him.  Justin almost lost his balance when he saw the glare that Brian sent him.  He turned around and went up to his room trying real hard not to cry.

***

Justin got into his room and finished drying himself with the towel.  He threw it in the hamper before he moved towards his bed.  He was feeling so relaxed and refreshed.  He was ready to go to bed and rest his back.  He got into the bed quickly and fixed a couple of pillows behind him to be comfortable.  

Justin was pretty tired.  He had work so hard in the diner that he thought he was going to die.  Then he had to mingle at the surprise going away party that Vic and Debbie had thrown for him.  He covered himself with the blue duvet Brian had given him some time ago.  He was going to miss Brian so much.

Justin started thinking about Brian’s eyes, his hair, his mouth, his body.  He could even hear Brian’s voice talking to him.  He opened his eyes wide when he realized that he could hear Brian so clearly because Brian had managed once again to sneak into his room.

“Justin, are you up?”  Brian asked.

Justin grabbed hold on the duvet and pulled it up to his neck while he looked at Brian.

“Let me get in there.”

“No.”  Justin said.

“What do you mean ‘no’?”  Brian asked.  

“I’m tired and I am going to sleep.”  Justin said.

Brian moved away from the bed and Justin closed his eyes with relief until the light turned on.

“What are you doing?”  Justin whispered.

“I want to know what’s wrong.  It must be something big if you don’t want my cock up your ass.”  Brian said smirking.  “I want to be with you one last night.”

Justin glared at him before he reached for one of his new shirts.  They were long and big so his belly wouldn’t show.  Brian grabbed the shirt, pulled it out of reach and looked at it.

“What the fuck is this?”  Brian asked.

“Can I have it back?”  Justin asked.

“Are you going out with a bear, Justin?”  Brian asked as he looked at size of the gray shirt.

Brian let the shirt fall to the floor and started to take off his clothes.  Justin was sure that he was going to die.

“Brian, I don’t want to see you anymore.”  Justin told him.

“Right.”  Brian said as he sat in the bed to take of his boots.

Justin swallowed and looked around to see if he had enough time to run to where the shirt was without Brian seeing his belly.  Brian turned around and tried to pull the duvet away from Justin.

“Stop.”  Justin told him.

Brian grabbed one of Justin’s legs and pulled him closer to the edge.  Then he pulled the duvet away from Justin and got on top of the blond.  He started kissing Justin’s neck and smiled when he felt Justin’s erection poking at him.

“Please don’t.  You have to go.”  Justin said.

“I want to be with you tonight, baby.”  Brian told him as he started to caress Justin’s chest.  “Don’t you want my hard cock inside you?”

“Oh god.”  Justin moaned as he closed his eyes shut.

Brian smiled and started to move his hand down on Justin’s body.

“You know you want me.  You must be hard for…Justin, what the fuck?”  Brian asked surprised when he felt the size and the hardness of Justin’s abdomen.

Brian pulled back and looked at his hand and then at Justin’s belly.  He looked at Justin who was looking away from him.  He got off the bed and took two steps back just looking at Justin’s body sprawled in the bed.

“You…you are pregnant, Justin.”  Brian said as if Justin wasn’t aware of that.

“I’m sorry.”  Justin told him as tears started to form.

Brian watched Justin in amazement.  He looked at Justin’s belly for a long time before he realized that Justin was sobbing.

“Don’t cry.”

“I’m so sorry.”  Justin told him.

Brian licked his lips, not sure what to do.  He took a really good look at his blond and smiled.  His baby was freaking hot.

“Justin?”

“What?”  Justin asked, whimpering.

Brian got in the bed and put his hands on Justin’s belly.

“This is mine.  This is ours.”  

Justin could hear the doubt in Brian’s voice.  He looked up and nodded.

“It’s yours, Brian.”  Justin murmured.

“Why didn’t you tell me?”  Brian asked.  “Why?”

“I was afraid that you wouldn’t want it.”  Justin said crying.  “I didn’t want to give him or her away.”

Brian hugged Justin to him.  He kissed Justin’s neck and licked him.  He could hear Justin crying still and it was unnerving him.  He wasn’t sure of what he was supposed to do.  He moved away to get some lube and a condom before he got between Justin’s legs.  He put the condom on and prepared Justin slowly making sure not to hurt the blond.

“Justin, shh, don’t cry, baby.”  Brian told him.  

“I’m scared.”  Justin told him as the tears fell down.

“I’ll protect you.  I promise.”  Brian told him as he entered Justin.

“Oh.”

“Am I hurting you?”  Brian asked.

Justin shook his head as he fisted the sheets.  Brian started to move slowly.  He couldn’t keep his hands away from Justin’s belly.  Justin wrapped his legs around Brian’s waist and closed his eyes but couldn’t stop crying.  They made love slowly and silently.  When they were done Brian cleaned Justin and himself with the gray shirt he had dropped in the floor.  

Brian threw the used condom in the trash can that Justin had under his desk.  He returned to the bed and sat by the edge.  His hands automatically went to Justin’s belly.  He couldn’t stop touching it.  Justin smiled and caressed Brian’s arm before he interlaced his fingers with Brian’s.  Brian looked at Justin and smiled a little before he got serious.

“Is this why you were leaving?”

Justin nodded.

“You can’t.”  Brian told him.  “I’m not going to let you go.”

“Brian…”

“Shut up.  You are not going anywhere.  You are staying here and we will deal with this.  This is not Daphne’s problem.”  Brian said. 

“I’m sorry, Brian.”

“I can’t believe you kept this from me.”  Brian told him.

“I didn’t know what to do.  I was scared.”  Justin told him.

Brian rolled his lips inside his mouth and nodded.

“Go to sleep, Justin.”  Brian said and kissed Justin.

Justin nodded and got comfortable in his small bed.  He felt Brian’s arms embracing him and he smiled as his eyes closed.  When he opened them again it was morning and Brian was gone.