Daphne smiled at Angel and caressed his face.  She still couldn’t believe that he was finally there.  Daphne took the baby’s blanket and covered him.  She kept glancing at Justin that was just staring at Angel but at the same time he looked out of sorts.

“He is beautiful, isn’t he?”

“Yeah,” Justin said smiling.

“Do you want something to drink?”  Daphne asked.

“Yeah,” Justin said.

Daphne just stared at Justin and wondered what could be Justin’s new crisis.  She took a magazine and just started going over it.  When she was done she looked up at Justin that was standing up at the same spot.  Daphne rolled her eyes and got up to stand next to her best friend.

“So, what’s wrong?”  Daphne asked.

Justin looked up and shook his head.

“Nothing is wrong,”

“You know Justin.  I thought I was your best friend.”

“You are Daphne.”  Justin told her looking up.

“What?”  Daphne asked innocently.  “Really, no kidding, then why the fucks are you treating me like a complete stranger, Justin?”

“I’m not.”  Justin said.

Daphne took a deep breath and just turned away.  She came back with a cup of coffee and gave it to him.  Then she just sat down and tried to guess what was wrong with her friend. 

“Why are you looking at me like that?”  Justin asked putting the cup of coffee down.

Daphne shrugged and kept on staring.  Justin sat down and then started biting his nails.

“Are you sure you are okay?”

“Why would you think that there is something wrong with me?  I’m perfectly fine.  I have never been better.”  Justin said.  

“Right,” Daphne said sarcastically.

Justin and Daphne looked at each other intensely before Justin broke down.

“Daphne,”

“What?”

“Would you think I’m crazy if…I told Brian he could move in with me?”  Justin asked.

“I knew it.”  Daphne said getting up.  “Wait a minute, what the hell did you just said?”

Daphne’s mouth hung open and her eyes almost budged out of her head.

“Brian, as in Brian Kinney,” She asked.

Justin nodded.

“You lost your mind,” Daphne said in shock.  “You are a masochist, Justin.”

“I thought I was over him, but shit.  Last night, he was coming out of the shower and god Daph, he looked so fucking hot.  I thought I was going to die or cum in my pants, whichever one happened first.”

“Wow, that’s like information I could do without, really.”

“Oh, god Daphne, he is back.  What am I going to do?”  Justin said running his fingers through his hair.  “Okay, so I might be a little jumpy, but it’s not my fault.  I don’t know what the fuck I was thinking when I told him he could move in.  I can’t kick him out now.”

“Wait, wait, wait, wait,” Daphne said throwing her arms in the air.  “You have to think this through, Justin.  Last time you were living with him you would come to me crying every night.  You said it hurt to be next to him.”

“It still does.”  Justin said.

Daphne sat next to Justin and put an arm around him.  She felt like she was back in college giving comfort to her friend.  It was just like in the past but Angel’s crying only proved that it was a different time, same shit.

***

Justin opened the door to his house to be assaulted by a great smell.  Justin went directly to the kitchen where he found Brian cooking.

“You cook?”

“Hey, I’ve been waiting for you.  I made us dinner.”  Brian said.

“Well, thanks dear.”  Justin said taking of his jacket.

“What, you already ate a clown?” 

Justin smirked.

“So how was your day?”  Justin asked.

“Good, the chief showed me around.”  Brian said.  “But I don’t know,”

“Don’t know what?”

“I have been thinking about quitting.”  Brian said.

“Really, what are you going to do?”  Justin asked.

“I have a bachelor in business.  I could use that.”  Brian said.

Justin sat down and looked at Brian.

“I thought being a homicide detective was your dream.”  Justin said.

“Not anymore,” Brian said shrugging.  “I don’t know maybe I’m just going through so much shit that I’m not thinking straight.”

“Maybe it’s PMS.”  Justin said.

Brian showed him the finger.

“It’s up to you, Brian.  It’s not my decision to make.”  

“I’m just thinking about it.”  Brian said and twisted his lips.  “Although, I will have to turn in my handcuffs.”

“That’s okay.  I can always lend you mine.”  Justin said smirking.

Brian smiled.

“I’m going back to New York.”  Brian said while he prepared a salad.

Justin’s heart started to beat fast.  He wanted to reach over to Brian and slap him.  He just pretended like the words didn’t mean anything to him.

“Really,” Justin said biting the inside of his cheek.

“Yeah, I want to see Gus.  Then I have to sign the papers to make everything official and I will be a free man.”

Justin smiled and nodded.

“What do you think I should do first?”  Brian asked.

“Skydiving,”

“What does skydiving has to do with being a free man?”  Brian asked coming to the table and putting the salad there.

“I don’t know.  It was the first thing that popped into my head.”  Justin said.  “So what are we having?”

“Food,”

“What kind of food?”  Justin asked smirking.

“Lasagna,” Brian said.

“That’s my favorite.”  Justin said.

“I know.”  Brian said and shrugged.  “I just wanted to say thank you for welcoming me in your house.”

Brian smiled and poured each of them some red wine.

“Thanks,” Justin said.  “You didn’t have to.  I was tired of being alone.”

Brian smirked.

“So you are just using me?”  Brian asked.

Justin laughed.

“Yeah, I was going to ask Michael to move in but I like you better.”

“Gee, thanks.”  Brian said before he sat down.  “To good times,”

“To good times,” Justin said.

Silently he was praying that he could be able to resist Brian.  He just didn’t want to fuck his relationship with him.  Brian was a good friend and he was going to try his best to keep it that way.

“So, it’s your birthday soon.”  Justin said smirking when he put his wineglass down.

Brian looked up and showed him his middle finger.

***

Justin laughed and pushed Brian back.  He was having the most wonderful time of his life.  He sat down slowly and looked around.  There was a mess everywhere he looked.

“This is a problem.”

“What?”

“Who is going to clean this fucking mess?”  Justin asked.  “Do you have a lighter?”

“I think so,” Brian said trying to find one.

“Wow, I can’t believe that you are thirty five years old already.  You are old.”  Justin said laughing.

“Justin, you are a year older than me.”  Brian told him finding the lighter.

“Oh, yeah, I forgot.”  Justin said giggling.

Brian smiled and shook his head.

“Here,”

“Thanks, Brian.  Do you have a cigarette?”

Brian nodded again and looked for one.

“When are you leaving?”  Justin asked.

“Tomorrow night,” Brian said.

“Cool,”

“Yeah,”

Justin laughed again.

“I think I’m feeling something.  I think I’m high.”  Justin said and looked at Brian that was still trying to find a cigarette.

“What are you doing?”

Brian looked up and frowned.

“I’m looking for something.”

“What?”

Brian shrugged.

“I wish I was back in high school.”

“What the fuck for?”  Brian asked.

“I don’t know.  As bad as it was, it was just perfect.”  Justin said.  “We didn’t have any worries in the world.”

Brian smiled and nodded.  He moved forward and reached for the bottle in front of him.

“I remember you used to have the biggest crush on Chris Hobbs.”

“God,” Justin said closing his eyes.  “Then he was history when I went to college.  I had a new one.”

“I know.  Me.”

“What?”  Justin asked feeling more alert than ever. 

“Come of it.  I know you were pinning away for me.”  Brian said giggling.  

Justin closed his eyes and thought of white sands and blue beaches.  He needed to relax.

“Justin,”

“What?”  Justin asked opening his eyes.

“What does it feel like to kiss a guy?”  Brian asked.

Justin shrugged.

“I don’t know.  Fucking amazing,”

Brian nodded and leaned forward to kiss Justin.  At first though Justin was going to pull away but he knew he would regret it forever.  So he just leaned forward too and let Brian’s lips touch his.  When he felt Brian’s tongue inside of him he just pulled away.

“Wow that was hot.”  Brian said.

Justin smiled.

“So, do you have a cigarette?”  Justin asked.

Brian nodded and started looking for one.